Category Archives: my thoughts/poems

I have been working on this blog for a few years now and every year I seem to get a different idea as to what I want to write about.   I am so happy I can help others through my words,  I think there’s so much hurt, Suicide/depression and others sicknesses, and I wish I could do something to help each one of them but I can’t.   So I chose to write about love; depression is also one that I’m very interested in.  Really every one of these causes can all be supported with love! I don’t know much about depression but some of my friends deal with depression or maybe even think about suicide, When I think about that there are people who I love with may have that that kind of thoughts.    I want to learn so much more about depression so I can better understand, there is so much time I want to learn; so I can do what I love doing which is writing and helping people. Why do people not feel loved or worthiness? Why are there people out there who does like who  they are? They think it would be better if they take their own life?   I am not saying I understand these thoughts, I can’t do image what that feels like to not have anyone who cares about you, or the feeling like you are on your own.  Love is really needed, it may not heal all the lonely, hurt and anyone who is going through a sickness just send out love!

Fall is so amazing all the different  colors coming from the trees.  

Yellows and golden leafs are so beautiful with the Colorado’s blue sky 

its so amazing to get to see everyday.
When you watch the leafs fall it looks like money falling from the sky!  

The things life puts in front of you sometimes, it can make hard to see why or to understand that everything we go through the a reason for it.   Even when it feels like  you have thought about taking your own life.  You can’t feel that people truly care about you.   Think again!   I don’t know what its feels like to think that taking your life would be better than living, I don’t know what it’s like to feel like no-one cares for you.   May be people don’t see what going on to know how to support you.  May be you are so hurt by people not giving you time,  you feel alone;  but if you look for love I’m sure that you have someone who loves you., Someone who you can talk too.  Life might bring you down sometimes but if you know that you are loved,  it will help.  

I love too much sometimes does that seem crazy?   Can we love too much?  I don’t think so, I know there is not enough love in the world.   We get into our lives and sometimes we forget that there are people who may not have anything that we don’t think about what we have as being a beautiful gift and there are people who might not know what that gift can do in life.   Love is the best feeling in the world, and knowing that the one thing that you could change someone who might be going through a hard time or maybe they are depressed and want to take their own life,  just be that one friend who loves on them in every way you can, let them know how much you care and that they can always talk to you.   That is the best way to help support someone. 

I am going to a leadership camp this weekend, I am so looking forward to this time! I’m so lucky because I have found out what I want to do with my life, help others it’s the best feeling ever!  This weekend will be about that, and how to open kids to see how amazing knowing the Lord  can be, I think and hope that I can learn something that will help me in my work here as a life coach as well.   I love that I can now spend my time writing in the hopes somewhere someone reads what I write about, and maybe it helps them feel inspired maybe just one minute. There are so many people hurting and don’t think that anyone   cares for them, I know I can’t help everyone, but this hurts me to know that there are people who don’t have love in their lives. I believe love is something no one should be without!

Life can be hard sometimes, some thing like losing a job or finding out that the way your life will go changes.   If you are facing something that will  be life changing, it can sometimes lead us into depression we all go through it where the we know it or not.   It’s something that if we talk about it, we could help save lives. There’s so many people that hide because they don’t want others to know.  I know depression is a sickness that people are not comfortable opening up about, but it is important to have a good support team that you can talk to whenever.   We all need to feel loved sometimes more than others.   Sometimes life can get hard to handle without the people who you know will always be by your side.   Love is everything!!  Even when you feel like there is no love in your life there is always love!

Butterflies are so amazing 

even though they only live one day.
They are magical, the way they fly into 

our day and somehow

they can put a smile on your face.
When you really need it! 

I’m away for the week.

This week Ms. Wheelchair American is going on in Iowa.  I will never forget when I was Ms. Wheelchair Colorado 2010.  I had such an amazing week.   I still can’t believe that I had that experience and now I get to go back to watch this year’s Ms. Wheelchair Colorado have the same experience.  I will not be writing for  4days.

This summer I have been seeing a beautiful butterfly almost everyday,  that is so cool to see.   I wonder if there is something I could learn from seeing a beautiful butterfly everyday.   A butterfly lifetime is only a few days,  but they are so amazing why can’t they live longer?   May be I’m learning how much each day really matters because you don’t know what will happen.   Love each day like today is the day to make a differences!

My heart is sad but happy at the same time, its seems crazy that we can be happy and happy. But sometimes it just is. I see my amazing friends and family and I know I am blessed! Love can help others who are going through hard times right now .

Life can show you the people who really need to be loved.  When we realize how much that person means to you,its like you can not get the right words out to let them know how much love you have for him or her. Its easy to think about how much that person means to you,  but when it is necessary to express how much they are loved.   Its like the hardest thing to do .  Why?   Or when life changes for a loved one,  it can sometimes wake you up into realizing that things can change so much that you should always tell people how much they mean to you.  How do you show someone just how much love you have for them?

There are so many ways we can give to others,  my favorite is not ”something” but love.   Love is one thing that never changes.  Sometimes we just need to know that we are loved!   A relationship is what we all need someone to talk to,  someone that gets you even when you don’t forget understand why you are acting weird.  Relationships are so much more important than something you can ever buy!

”You can bless people through your very presence. Never underestimate the gifts and magic of you!”

Self confidence is something we all could work on.   We often times don’t think we are good enough to do or be a change in the world.  The things that we think we can make a change in,  we should just go for it why do we care about what others think.  If you know you can make a change, we just do it!

“I am confident because I can admit who I am, what I’ve done, and love myself for who I’ve become.”
Author Unknown

Its so crazy how much we need to have love in our lives.   Just think about how much love can do.   When you are in a weird mood or you don’t think that you have love in your life the day has been to hard for you;  when someone says they love you.  Doesn’t that just make everything a little better just knowing that? We need to have love in our lives it just makes things that much better.   You may be going through a lot right but if you know that you are loved and supported it seems that much easier.

In life there are unseen heroes.

The people who don’t look at the hard times and want to give up

The ones who put others first.

Someone who has it hard but still has a great out look on life

We all know someone who is an true hero!
Let that person know how you feel!

This song says it the way I think we all have felt sometimes.   There is so much heartache and brokenness but why?   When love is easy to give,  yes it can get hard but it is so worth it!   It is something that can help anything you will go through.   Life is full of change and hurt but when you have support behind you,  the hard times seem a little easier just knowing that you have someone by your side!

To Mom, You are Strong. The strongest women I know! Always there knowing what it means to love someone else more than yourself. I am very happy, grateful you are mine! I love you always my mom! 5/10/14

This week has been kind of hard for me.  Love can be hard sometimes, especially when you think about what if I love someone more than they love me.  And this week I’ve try not to think like that but sometimes people don’t need to show it,  you just know that what you are doing for them really helps them.  Someone who is very important to me has been going through so much lately and I have been messaging this person.  Just to be there for them, I want them to know how much I love them and I have been loving doing it daily, but sometimes I get selfish and I wish that I could get more time with them and wanting them to be at my events when it doesn’t happen I feel hurt by this person not coming.   I have forgotten how much just being able to show so much how much they are loved can mean so much that they I will ever know.   Knowing that I may be helping them with love makes me happy.  Because really loving and supporting someone who is going through a lot is the best way to show the person that I am beside them through this season.   I have to remember that I can be there without seeing them and that is what I want.

”Where there is love there is life.”  Life could not be full without love,  just think about it what do you have if love is not in your life.   You could have everything that money can get but if you are lonely you can never be truly happy!   Love is like a light shining through all of us.

Hey everyone,  I just wanted to let you know,  for the next few days I’m not going to be posting because I have to use a special keyboard to write but my room is getting new flooring and I won’t be able to use it.   I will try to post on facebook.

We all have been at a place in our lifes where something so simple is the feeling that is the hardest to know what it is like.   That feeling would be love!   It is both easy and hard to give or receive .   When we are dealing with so much hard things;  you can feel alone as if no one will understand the feelings you have.   But if the people who you are closest to are there with you it seems easier, they might not understand everything you are going through but the support and love can mean so much.   The best way to help someone is just by loving them.

What is your favorite gift?
Think of every gift you have ever gotten

a gift does not have to be something,

it could be a person.
Friendship is the best gift!

Especially when you know it’s meant to be

and that friendship will always be!

Real strength is not giving up when everything in your life is hard. It is knowing that the day will come when the sun will shine on you.   What you go through to have a life you have always dreamed about,  life is hard but when you have the right support you can get through so much more than trying to do everything on your own.  “Strength doesn’t come from what you can do. It comes from overcoming the things you once thought you couldn’t.

I have been thinking about what I want to have this online community service, I wish that this part wasn’t so hard to get an idea and just stick with it. I wish that all the issues I want to make a difference in,  could somehow be under the same topic but they are not. The only thing that they have in common is love. Everything we go through could be helped with love and knowing that you are supported.  There is so much hurt and loneliness in the world, that I just want to fix it all by inspiring and just loving those I can!  All of my life I have wanted to make a difference in people’s lifes more than anything else I could do.  It seems like loving others should come first but the way we live its hard sometimes to put others first,  we try so hard to fit in that if there is something that we do different we get the looks like its weird to be who you are.   But aren’t we all different?  I know I can’t help everyone but I know there is a way to serve people who are going through a hard time and don’t know where to turn. I want to have this be a place where people can message me or write on the blog/facebook page when you just need someone to talk to.  If you want you can also email me at zvargues6@gmail.com.

I wish I could help everyone who is going through a hard time,  the people who feel alone; having the feeling that nobody cares for you does not help any.   You might think that being strong means dealing with the hard times on your own,  you are wrong.   Life can be hard,  but if you have support you can get through most things I’m not saying that the hard times won’t come, but the right support will make a difference in the times when you can’t do it alone.  I think depression can begin from being on your own so much; thinking that people in your life don’t want to help you or they don’t understand what it is that is getting you down. When we all go through times when love is needed more,  if you think about it you will see how much love can get you through the hardest times.   Just think about how you feel when someone texts you just to let you know that you are loved so much;  it can  change your whole day.

What in your life keeps you going?

Who helps you get through the hard times?
The sun lights up the sky and brings us happiness,

but what or who helps you when you don’t think you can handle the hard times?

We all need to have something or someone who helps us get through the hard times!
Love is necessary for healing the brokenness we all feel at some point in life.

We all have a birth family the people who have the same name as you.   A mother and father who brought you life  But do you ever think about your friends being a part of your family?   Or think about the kids who have been adopted the family they have are not the people who had them.   But those children know that the people who love and support them,  that is a family.  The people who truly care about you are family!   Its not just the people who have your last name,  but the people who are understanding and love you the way you are!

I got this from a friend,  I really think this is why I want to help others.   There are so many people who don’t have a lot of love or support in their lives, if we could show people that they are loved;  we could help end depression.

”If you can wake up every morning loving what you do, help and inspire others around you to be better than they were yesterday then you know you’re doing something right in business and in life.

Be an inspiration. In this cruel world full of people who are only concerned with bringing others down with their judgments, words, and thoughts, we have to be one of the few who actually make an effort to inspire others, and make a difference by being the best motivators we can by simply being ourselves. We must all aspire to inspire, and aspire to create a better world by the time we are gone from it, and then it was when we first began it.

There are many ways to inspire others, but one good way is to actually follow your own dreams wholeheartedly, never give up, and be willing to bless others with tips and kind words that may help others to see that there is still much good around on this humungous planet. Be someone’s inspiration before you no longer have the chance to be, inspire the change in the world that will inspire more change in the world.”

The word disability can have so many different meanings,  there is a person that you can see the disability and then there are hidden disabilities.   What does it really mean to have a disability?   Here is the dictionary defines a disability, ”the condition of being unable to do things in the normal way : the condition of being disabled”.  Although is anyone”so called normal’?  I think we all have some kind of disability that makes us special and needed.   So what if you can see that I have cerebral palsy I don’t care!   No one is normal I’m sorry to say,  but if you have needed help you have some kind of disability.   We all need help sometimes,  having a life without other people would be boring.  Life is meant to be shared,  having love in life makes all the hard times a little easier just knowing that someone is on your side.   Have you thought about that needing somebody could define it as having a disability?   Its not a big deal?   Yes I know what you are thinking, that I’m going crazy. But just think about it,  if you are different you are special.   So why do we look at being different in a bad way,  there are no two people who are the same.   That is what makes life so great!

Who is a hero in your life?  Who do you look up to?   Something like this can be hard to see,  who are really heroes in life.   We think of a hero as soldiers,  someone who saves people’s life.   But there is so much more that I think that makes someone a hero,  now I am not saying that soldiers and the people who give up their lives to make us save are not heroes they are.   Heroes can also be the people who keep going when everything seems to be going wrong.  they never give up on their dreams! You can just give in to lifes hard times, thinking that you can’t change it; or you can fight against all the things that are in your way!   Someone who lives and fights through the times when giving in would be easier, we know people who are un-named heroes who should be honored!

Do you think that dancing could change your life?   We all go through things that no-matter how hard we try to understand it doesn’t make sense.   We tried everything to come to understand the way life can work sometimes;  all we want to say it’s not fair;  or why me.   Finding a way to get through it could be hard without dance.   I think on days like that;  dancing might help it may get the hard things off your mind.   I am going to try it!

Its easy for us to only see the things we wish we could change.   The stuff that can get everyone down on life .  In those times it’s so hard to see that each day there is something to be grateful for;  may be it’s just something like having a good home, or maybe it’s knowing that you can change the way we look at life.  Our out look on the hard times can be what helps the most.  Being thankful for even the smallest thing can be so helpful.   Joking about the things you do also helps. There is so much to give thanks for everyday, but we don’t often see how lucky we are!

Have  you ever thought about this question?  Sometimes it’s hard to think about yourself; but it is important for you to love who you are!   Life puts titles on us but the title we have for ourselves is the most important.

Looking up at night sky can be so amazing.   You can see a thousand stars; its as if they all have a name that somehow goes with us.   I know for me;  looking up at the stars gets me to thinking about how we are all the same.   The stars have a great way to let you feel that you are loved!  It may seem like a crazy idea;  but I really believe that the stars have a way to let us know that we are loved!

This month is all about loving others; its Valentine’s Day just one day out of the month.  But I would like to think it could be a season just like we have a Christmas season; so I want to let this be a season of love!   Love is something I don’t think that there is enough of,  there are so many people who feel alone,  unloved;  but why?   Its the easiest thing to give but we sometimes forget that we could help support someone just by loving them!

What is faith?

Faith is knowing that there is something more out there.

For many it’s believing in God

For others faith is something else,

It can also be just hope that things will get better

Its the believing in something that we can’t see,

but we know it’s there.

Are there moments in your life when you wonder why me?   Life has its reasons why things happen the way they do.   It doesn’t tell you why or when it will happen.   The hard times don’t let you know when they are coming,  they just come.   They don’t care if you are alone or if you have a good support team behind you.   Its sad knowing that there are people who feel alone, or like no one cares.  How can we let others go unseen and unloved?  All that we would need to do is show them love.

Life is about relationships, that is what can really change life for anyone.   Think about someone who has everything that one could buy,  but their life is full of work and things;  are they happy?   Not truly.  People need to have real relationships in their lives, not only to have someone to share the happiest moments with,  but also someone to make us feel special when life is hard.   We can not buy comfort,  we need to have someone who understands what we are going through,  someone who we know that no-matter where they are,  they will be there for us. Life is not meant to be without love,  it is the key to a happy life!

This is one of those message games.   I loved what it says I thought it would be a great uplifting message.

”This world needs as much kindness as it can get. I’m participating in the ‘Pay it Forward’ initiative: the first five people who comment on this status with “I’m in” will receive a surprise from me at some point during this year anything from a book, a ticket, something homemade, a postcard, absolutely any surprise! There will be no warning and it will happen when the mood comes over me and I find something that I believe would suit you and make you happy. These five people must make the same offer on their Facebook status Once my first five have “I’m in” I will forward this message to you privately so that you can copy and paste it, and put it in your status. (Don’t share it) so that we can form a web of connection of kindness. Let’s do more nice and loving things in 2015, without any reason other than to make each other smile and show that we think of each other. Here’s to a more enjoyable, friendly, and love filled year!.”

The more I learn about depression the more I feel like there is so much that I need to know. Depression is more of a disability than a sickness.  It takes control of everything in your body; where as a sickness is only in a few areas of the body mostly.   Depression for most people takes over the way people with depression sometimes think.  I think depression is not something that people who have it can get over;  they can feel better but I feel like depression is a sickness that is always there.  I wish for people who have depression to know that they are loved.

When life gets you down, what do you do? Who understands what is getting to you?  These questions we have all wondered about; when life seems too much to handle. It may seem like no one cares about what is getting to you, as if you are the only person that feels sadness. So you find some way to feel better, it may take the hurt away for a little while.  We need to talk to someone else that could help us, sometimes we can’t help ourselves when we find ourselves getting into bad habits just to feel good about yourself.  We all have hard times;  we have people who care for us to help when it’s really needed.

You are beautiful in side and out,

People don’t hear that a lot,

Then it can turn into

Worrying  to much about what other people see but not

who we truly are,

What truly matters is how you look is you!

When I first started to write I was using a blog on google but since I started using wordpress.  I wanted to transfer all my writings into one site but I have put some on here already that I’m not sure which ones I’ve posted on already, so I’ve decided to put the link to my old blog here.  If you want to take a look here is the link;  http://livelifeoflove.blogspot.com.