The sunlight can be amazing, it brings us joy.  In more ways than we know.   That person who is always there, your family, your pets making you laughs when you see them pay.   Maybe you can’t see it right now there is too much hurt; don’t give in let someone in.  Maybe they can help or just help you find a way to dance again!

Childhood with a difference can be hard on everyone. Not because it’s the child but because there is so much people think they need more than a normal child.   I am saying that some child who are disabled nothing more but every disability is so different in more ways than people think; trying to group all disabled children into the same class doesn’t seem right to me.  I think there could be a other way to see it a child can or needs more help.  Some people who have disabilities could do more than people think. It may be a little different but they can, just learn them and go from there!

When you can’t help someone you love with all your heart is can be the hardcore things.   But you know just loving them is what they need more than anything else.   Its still makes you want to do more but really love fixes everything.

Having a physical disability is that big of a deal I think.   It a difference in the way people think; to me any kind of a difference is a disability but for most people a disability is different than something small that they may have.   It is not a disability; where do you get that idea from? We place people with visible differences into one group but it shouldn’t be we together because we’re all different!  I want to change the word to be the new normal!

Love is the best thing on earth.   I don’t want or need any other gifts even.   That is my happiness love and sharing it.    I know it may not help everything but for me yes it does.  My mission to help those who are feeling alone and hurting.

What do you think of when you think of disability?  There are several different ideas about what people with disabilities but mostly it’s what you cannot do, its not because they don’t care they just don’t know any different.     Having a wheelchair and getting that look of oww sorry about that you’re in a wheelchair or baby talk like I don’t understand.   Every time I meet someone new, I am still not used to it.  Its me, I can do anything and no I am not a kid just because I don’t walk.  It like I have to walk to think!   I have a lot that I can do just in a different way.   It happens all the time and I want to change that view.   I will!

Think about what you can do daily to keep yourself happy?  Its music!   I have to have music on whatever I do.  Its first thing to get my day going, there some things that we do daily that makes life easier for me its music!   I love hearing a song that remains me of someone or may me want to dance around like crazy because no one is watching!   What is your one thing that gets you happy?   Do you write in a journal that also can help some.

true happiness

Each day do you wake up joyfully?   It’s not always easy but I like to think I do.   I know I don’t; but being happy is not about having everything you want I think.  I think happiness comes from love!   Knowing that you have people in your life that do not care when you call them or how you look, act or anything else about you.   They love and care for you; that is what I think happiness is.  It is not everything else that we think of when want to be happy, it’s looking inside yourself and knowing that you are loved for you!   What brings you joy?   What could you do if you don’t see joy daily?  Because joy is everywhere you just have to see it in the little things and know how you are loved!

From someone I look up to.

This is from a very dear friend.   ‘’ Zara, has always been very thoughtful towards me. She cares about all of my feelings. When I was in need, as a Mom, she helped me take care of my kids so that I could do other things. They loved her and remember those times, to this day. I enjoy texting her everyday. She brings me joy.”

What makes you happy?   Do you have a dream that you don’t think can come true?  I can tell you stop putting yourself down!  Its hard not to; because others judge you not on what you can do but your differences.  Learning to be ok with yourself sometimes, but it is the best way to make yourself happy.

I just saw a post about breaking the silence towards mental illness and I couldn’t agree with that more!   I don’t deal with depression or mental illness but I know people who have and I want to be a person could may be change the way we think about it; just like I want to do for the disability community.   Because I don’t like the way its looked at.   In a way it is like saying to me; why don’t you walk?  Its not something people can help; maybe something happened that left a bad impact on them, or it just is.  I know there is much more that is a mental illness I’m still learning but this important to me.  I don’t think depression well enough supported; maybe I can’t do much but I will try to.

What is a friend who is always there?  An angel I think.

Life can be hand crazy and as time moves on,  we sometimes can loss contract with the ones that made us feel like we matter; when we needed the most.   They never forgot even if we did.   Then we get them back as if they were always been right there.   That is an angel.

Ms. Wheelchair Colorado

One of my other things I am involved with is an organization that helps woman in wheelchairs feel empowered.  “The mission of Ms. Wheelchair America is to provide an opportunity of achievement for women who happen to be wheelchair users to successfully educate and advocate for the more than 54 million Americans living with disabilities. Unlike traditional beauty pageants, Ms. Wheelchair America is not a contest to select the most attractive individual. It is instead a competition based on advocacy, achievement, communication and presentation to select the most accomplished and articulate spokeswoman for persons with disabilities. The selected representative must be able to communicate both the needs and the accomplishments of her constituency to the general public, the business community and the legislature.’’.   I was honored to be Ms.  Wheelchair Colorado 2010 and I still cannot believe the judges choose me.  But anyway now I run it in Colorado and I get to give other woman in wheelchairs the same experience and may be change their life; because I know it did for me.   Ms. Wheelchair American is not about how you look but more about what you do with your disability and your community.   I loved everything about my year, this group is not something you do once and then you forget about it;  no it is people who can understand what it is like to be in a wheelchair and still want to have a life.   Friends that I still talk to!  Each March Ms. Wheelchair Colorado has a pageant to find a new Ms.   Wheelchair, if you know anyone who is interested please let me know!

Finding joy, hope and love in everything!   Many of you know my story and that I have cerebral Palsy I have a kind which is not that common.   I have been able to do almost everything that the doctors thought I wouldn’t;  they thought I just be able to lay basically but I have people who have pushed me to where now I’m pushing myself.   To living on my own and starting up my own business with the help of friends.  All that to say I know what is to stand out and mostly in high school I didn’t know what I would become; the thing I wanted to do I knew I couldn’t it but then I began to writing and it gave me the opportunity to do something I have always wanted to.  Just in a different way;  I am saying that being hopefully may be might get you to what you are mean to do with your life.

What is the best love?   To feel it or give it? I am wondered about this;  how could you show somebody just how much you love them?    When most of lifes is spent at work, making sure we can get everything we need to be happy but really what is needed most;  is the thing we do when everything else is ok.  Show somebody what they mean to us.   I think that is why so much hurt;  yes we need to money.   But we need each other more! I love deeply as I want to make others understand that love is so needed.

Life is hard sometimes especially when you have a difference but don’t we all?  As I think about my blog and why I want to do this,  its because more people look at differences as something that we should be scared of just as if it can go away but really it can’t!   It is why we have each other to left up with other.   But we don’t when we don’t understand what the other person is going through, this is why I am wanting mentor and because of a coach because hiding who you are is not living in the best way.   Like I said before I am not a Dr but I understand being different and feeling lonely because of something I have,  cp.  It’s hard I get it.   If you have depression I want to help it would be in a different way;   but it is one of the difference I want to have a difference in!   I am still starting this but I can tell you this; I love helping people.