New way to write for me

I have my tablet back, so I want to see if I can write better and faster with it. Trying something new can take time, especially if you have a different kind of disability which mine is uncommon! Sometimes I like but I don’t; because new things for the disabilited people, isn’t always easy for me to use.. I have had this tablet just about all year, I have not used it much because some of the things I need to use it with was not working in the way I needed it to, but I am trying it again! I think I like it!

time don’t forget

Once in a while you meet someone else changes your life or maybe you realize that.   I had this happened yesterday I was telling my friends about someone who meant a lot to me just taking about how I am doing whatever I can to save up so I can go there.   Now you’re going to think it’s not a big thing but the more I think about this friendship and the season in my life;  high school,  disabled teenager who was trying to get others to understand I could do anything I worked towards,  but I was lonely.  I had a best friend in my mom but school was terrible because I could not get the education mom and I knew I could do or true friendships.   One day going for a walk and meeting someone who needed my help it was a real beautiful thing in that season and then getting reconnected with this person and knowing how much things had not changed with us even after years.   You may not think about the friendship as life changing in the moment but when remembering it later maybe it did mean more to you just knowing someone took the time.

So what

Its starting to get cold out, what do you like do when weather changes?  The days it’s too cold to get out of the house,  your comfort zone;  it’s not just the weather that go through changes,  we do too.   We try to keep it hidden, because of everything from others would say to pick on us, even though it is not our doing,  difference or illness is not something we can control but people don’t understand differences even if we are all different.  They don’t understand your life may be your life can be because of an bad experience that has been hard to deal with, or maybe you may have an illness, or a disability, that others don’t get because it’s new to them.   Growing up with CP and now trying to live as normal as I can but I still get the look like I’m not to do something just because I use a wheelchair.   What is the big deal I don’t walk, I used to let others thoughts get to me,  but now I know where I taking my life and what the people who are in my world think about me and is what helps me when others are trying to put me down.   Maybe it would help you.

Live a life of love within yourself; is a community group to support each other.  In a time, day or if it’s always we have times when we go through something that we just as need to know someone is there!   I am not a dog who knows everything about mental health, but I know what is it like to have a difference that everyone see before they give you time to get to know you.   I know how much it can hurt when you know if people would see you without your difference, they would see you differently!  This has been my God to help others; since I have a hard time talking I have decided to be mentor though writing.  This I hope for it to become my business, so I am going to say $20 for a year of mentoring with me.

show them

This morning I was at an event for the disability community, thinking that I could do some networking and meet new people; it didn’t end up that way, it felt as if people are afraid of differences even though we all have a difference. I think I can make friends easily, but I don’t.   Once people know what disability I have then they start to talk to me; because I move all the time and my speech is not that good,  its hard to meet people. Having a difference in which people can see even before they talk to you can put you down, but you have to show them you’re more than your difference!

lonely

Depression can be lonely. Its hard to know how much to help; or not to say the wrong thing. These thoughts we all, even me and I want to help people who depression not because I know about it;  but I could help being their happiness back or just even just be there when its really needed.   I feel like depression is an illnesses that people ran from, just they don’t understand , don’t think they know what to say.  Here is the way I say it,  its not about knowing what to say but first just be there nothing else could help them more than knowing that someone is always there!   Just knowing that they are loved and someone is there ready to talk or be a friend whom no one else will.

BIA

My week away was amazing and needed too.   I am tired but I loved every moment of it,  as you know having a difference that others can see and then think that you are not capable when you know are, can be hard.   But there at camp it was what can you do.  I had to think of goals each day that I thought I have do; I wanted to walk everybody which I did!  I even did some walking on the ropes course which was hard but fun then I zipped down the best part!  We rafting I loved so much,  I loved everything getting to meet new friends and feeling like I was not disabled and nominal,  I worked hard but had a great week.