Hi, everyone. I know I haven’t done anything to this page in forever. I thought after my year of being Ms. Wheelchair I couldn’t be Ms. Wheelchair 2010, but I now realize that even though it’s not my year, I will always be Ms. Wheelchair CO 2010. I am going to try to post more on here. If I do anything that is around disabilities or my crazy CP, it is because I have been thinking a lot about being Ms. Wheelchair for 10 years now. I can’t get over that I am part of something that can change someone’s outlook on being in a chair. I don’t think enough people know about Ms. Wheelchair America and how important it is, so I want to tell the world how amazing it is. Even 10 years later, I wonder why I got picked to be Ms. Wheelchair CO 2010. I’m working on a business for myself, and I have hiked Mt Elbert. Before I was Ms. Wheelchair, I knew I could do anything I wanted, but because of the way I talk and my movements, there were certain things I thought I couldn’t do. When I went to Ms. Wheelchair, I saw all the people in chairs, and they didn’t let the wheelchair stop them. It gave me confidence to finish college and try some stuff that I would would never think I could do, like hiking a mountain or starting a business. Ms. Wheelchair America, Inc.
Mental illness and having a disability are along the same line. They’re both not easy to deal with, and people often don’t understand what it is like to have a difference. I have been thinking about how I could focus on one subject, mental illness or disability; I couldn’t pick just one for my business. They are both very misunderstood. Because I have a disability that makes me move crazy and talk funny, I have to work harder to make friends. I don’t actually know what it’s like to have a mental illness, but I know as soon as someone talks about having a mental illness, people run away. People also think it’s made up because it’s not visible. I don’t believe any of that. I want to find a way to start a movement to change the way people view mental illness. I know there have been different movements to change the stigma for women and people with disabilities. Why or how can we start a movement for mental illness?
The mind is like a book
With lots of different stores,
That makes up us.
We all have things that makes us happy
But for some love could be what is needed most to help, when they are depressed.
Love and understanding is what needed!
Today is suicide prevention day. This is something I wish more people knew about, and understood what mental illnes is like for the person that has to deal with it. But sometimes people think it’s something made up, but it’s not that at all! Mental illness is a sickness that we can help better the lives who have it, if we understood more about Mental illness!
My CP its not common to have, there are a lot things I need to figure out another way to do what I want in life, including talking daily. I don’t let anything get in the way. I have always wanted to do something out of the ordinary and I’m going to do exactly that. I’m going to climb a mountain not only that but is the highest in Colorado, my mind is going crazy I’m not one to act like I can’t do anything but I never thought I’d be going on a hike this big and now I am talking about this hike like is no big deal and IT IS A BIG DEAL because it would be possible if it wasn’t for the Lockwood Foundation. I’m going to keep writing about this til it comes because I’m beyond excited and also kind of nervous I have no idea what to expect.
Mental illness can be hard to deal with, but people do. As someone who knows some people who dispersion I want to learn everything I can about mental health. So I have been reading a lot about it, and it made me realize how much everyone could still understand about mental health.. is it worth it and needed! I am going to change the way we look at it and help those who hid their mental illness away just because people don’t understand.
Mental health is important to talk about, we don’t because people are nevus to talk about having a mental health problems. Because people don’t see it as a real problem, but it is important to talk your feelings it may be the only thing that helps.. Maybe you will even see that you are special and needed!
Hello everyone, happy belated New year.. I am sorry I haven’t been writing. I’ve been going through some stuff, and I have been reading so much. I’ve been reading when I should have been working on my writing.. I am going to try to write more. I have not feeling like myself lately, I have been sad and unmotivated: some might call it being depressed but I think it’s being in a new place and not knowing many people or not having anything to do, but I do have things to do and people to talk to so I think I need to stop feeling down and and start writing, I don’t have to go out to feel like I am making a difference. I can do that from my blog. So that is what I am going to fouse on, to help me keep motivated!
Depression and any kind of mental health problem is so real. But it’s not talked about, we act like it’s not real: as if they are trying to get more love. But really people with mental health problem are not acting they do need help. Depression and mental health does need to be talked about!
Lately I have been reading like crazy and that is why I haven’t been writing.. I have moved to Pueblo and sometimes I get down because I get lonely,, I wonder if I made the right decision for me. But it will get better, once I have my own house.
Have you ever loved someone that the more you try to tell thecan\’t find the right word to describe how much you love them! Each time it gets harder.. But somehowm it’s like you can’t find the right word to describe how much you love them! Each time it gets harder.. But somehow you know they understand how you feel. So that is what you need to trust and stop over thinking of ways to show them,, they know!
Looking out on a snowy day, I don’t like snow but watching come down is beautiful. As many other things in life. We don’t always see it, but beauty is in everything we just need to take the time to see it.
Everyone has times where we wonder if we’re doing what we are meant for, if we can do more. During times of change is hard to find yourself but if you have support you will find your way..
Today I am thankful for light in our life that helps us keep happy. For me, it’s love and helping others see they’re loved ❤️. Shining into someone else’s life is the best way to give them love..
Day 11, I know I missed a few days but I have decided that I will do my own days. Today I thankful for books and reading! I have always been a big reader but now I can read on my phone.! I’m reading anytime i can!
Day 8. I’m thankful for my family, and the family that has became so close to me I think of them as family.. My birth family is so far away that it’s nice to have friends that are my 2ed family!
Day 7. I love music, sometimes that’s all I need to get happy! I love when a good song comes on, and I am able to go to other place. A favorite song can remind you a moment and or a friendship. I’m thankful for music and what it gives us..
Day 6, do you ever give thanks for something in your life that is hard.. Today I am giving thanks for my CP. I know it’s the thing that has helped me become the person I am today but it has made my life harder, but I am the way I am! The hardest thing about my CP is, people who don’t know me can’t understand me.. Most people who don’t know me think I can’t think for myself and it drives me nuts! I have recently became ok with it. It’s not me it’s them!
Day 5. I love to help others. I have been on a few boards, since I can’t get a job I’ve decided to help with non-profit organizations: which I went to school for. My friend who loves the outdoors as much as I would if I could walk: we started an special needs outdoors organization.! It has changed my life! It has been amazing to see people’s lives change just because they are now able to do something that they couldn’t do without this organization.. I’m thankful for that organization and this friendship.
You know when you are a child, getting a gift to open on your birthday is the thing that makes your day. It’s great to get gifts, but for me it’s the people who have made an impact on me to help me become the person i am meant to be. I have a disability so a mentor can be important just to help talk though life. I have found one who has been very close to me for a long time now and I just realized that we have been talking daily for years I thought it would be nice, a mentor is someone who understands what is going on in your life and you can talk about anything. We’re very close, I love my mentor. I’m thankful for her.
Day 3, I’m thankful for love and support. I’m a happy person mostly but I do have my bad days. But I have so much love that when I am having a hard time, I have people that I can talk to about anything and that is what makes the difference in my life!
I use to hate writing because I am a terrible speller, it didn’t help that I was not able to write on my own until I was in high school, which helped when we can write for ourselves and we can see and learn how to write. Now that I can write on my own, I love to write! I’m starting to keep my diary and doing this blog that I hope helps others I am realizing how much I love to write. Day2 I am thankful for writing!
Thanksgiving month is here! One of my favorite time of year, I always try to write each day what I am thankful for that day but I don’t always keep doing it. So let’s see if I write each day… This year was a great year I have so much to be thankful for. I realized what is a true gift is. I will write more on that later this month. Day1, I am thankful for memories that help make you who you are today!
Starting over can be hard but it could be what is needed to grow yourself, in so many ways. But it also gives you anxiety, I’m in that in life, I want this I know it will be great for me, but right now it’s a little hard.. I’m not sure what to do each day. I know it will get better but now I’m going through anxiety but I am not giving in.
Today is Mental health day. I like to think I stand to help people with mental health problems… It’s a difference that most people don’t understand. I understand that having depression or bipolar it’s not something you can help! I am going to try to help stop the way others view mental health because it’s not right.
I have a kind of CP that is not very common. It effects all my motions and my ability to walk, and talk well but with all that makes my daily life harder, I love it. I have worked hard to get where I am today. I have a great support team to where I live on my own. I am working on starting my own business to help others who have mental health problems..
You matter.! You are so needed, you are special. These things are not said enough. Saying I love you, can make their day,, you may not know how much those words can change someone’s life.. we need that more than anything else.
Being happy with the way your life is what you make it. Being happy is not how you have but how you look at life!
I love with everything I have! What makes me happy is knowing that the people whom I hold close know just how much they mean to me. I love doing things for others, it is makes my heart happy, yeah my CP makes my days hard at times but I have learned how to deal with CP. I have so much love that it makes me want to help others.
Someone somewhere is dealing with depression, but hiding it because if you have a difference you get out casted. Depression is not something to take lightly it could get to where they could take their own life. When we can do something to help them feel loved and needed.. Don’t let depression tran you a way from them. Be there, because your friendship and love might be the only thing that helps!
Depressed hurts it not only hurts the one who has it but also everyone who loves them.. it’s hard to know what to do if someone you know is going through depression; you may not know what to do to help them without them realizing that you are aware of their depression. As I learn more about people who have depression, most people don’t want to talk about it but you can tell by the way they act: as if nothing matters or they don’t want to do anything. Also if they don’t care about themselves! You can tell, but it’s hard to know what to do or tell them.. Depression is like your mind takes over and we don’t understand why people are pulling away and hiding: but we want to help we want to find a way of being there for them when they feel alone. Just be there it could be all that is needed!
Love is the best gift you could give someone! It’s the one thing that we all can give to help someone who is going through a tough time. Without even knowing how much you are doing for the person, they know you care.. These days we are dealing with more depression, more people who think they are not worth love or they are not enough: people who need to get lefted up.! Maybe you don’t think you can help them, but if you are loving them you’re helping them in more ways than you will ever know. So love others.
This past week was full of moments that I will never forget from the hike on the 4th, to getting a special weekend in Chicago!
Last Thursday I was able to hike up a mountain with my friends, which amazing to think that I could do it! I have always been one to think anything is possible if you put your mind to it, but hiking a mountain was out for me. But one of my friends who hikes all the time, said it would be possible to get me up a mountain! We started a group together for people with disabilities on hikes and camp outs.. For my birthday he took me to the top of a mountain! Amazing time and with an amazing group of people, I was going on a mountain hike I was just another person,. I was in a wheelchair that was pushed and pulled up to the top, and I was loving the new friends and experience. The next day I was up early to go to Chicago for my best friend weekend.. I was so excited. I thought I was going to make her feel special but she had everything set up to let me i was family! We got a tour of Chicago and a game which was fun! Then just hanging out with her was the best gift I ask for!
My summer day is getting busy with my trip which I have been thinking about forever now. As a person with a disability and needing to go with me and everything else I have to an idea about if I can get into. Sometimes my cp, can make a trip in a way challenging but I have an amazing team who help me experience everything without even a second thought.. we are going to Chicago for my best friend, so I am so thankful to my other best friend who is giving up her weekend so I can spend time with a friend.
we all need love but there are many who need it much more than we know. they may not show it but you can tell by the way they act. Not thinking you could love them. But you know they have all your love and support!
There is a reason we meet the people have in our lifes
Why we hold some so close
A reason time may take us from them
But we will understand why time puts that person in our lifes
As if they are just what we needed or maybe they are just a gift!
Be someone’s light in the darkness! It doesn’t take a lot to show them you care. You might not think so but it could mean everything to them. It doesn’t need to be a big thing, just show someone they are needed and they matter to you.
I love when things come alive! Summer days are coming, we can do more outdoors. Or you can have new experiences which that is going to be my summer and I’m super excited; with camp out, hikes, seeing someones who is very special to me and my brother is coming! Sometimes it can seem as if everything is coming true. I had not myself lately, sometimes we have these feeling that we don’t understand, there is so much that could explain why depression can be hard. I’m not saying I know what depression is like but I can say it comes when we have everything going right.
Love is very much needed, we need to share it more than we do. There is so much hurting people just because they have a difference that we don’t understand or we don’t think it’s true. Someone might be going through something and they also have depression which people with depression don’t want to talk about it: because it is a difference you can’t see it. So others that don’t have it, might think that someone who has depression might be acting, but it is not! So people with depression might hide it not to have to hear that they will be fine when they are hurting in ways we can not understand. So just be there and bring them love!
Someone somewhere needs you. Maybe you think of your life not as perfect, or maybe you are still trying to figure out what you want to do with your life. But you trying maybe is helping someone else get through whatever is getting them down. Maybe you are already helping them without even knowing!
I live in a parry good town, as we all think until something happens. then we start to wonder; if the place we call home is safe. This last Tuesday my friend and I when we heard that there had been a school shooting very close to my home. Another shooting in one of the safes places we send kids, to add to this it is a k-12 school. What is going on with our world these days, not only that but now; children are getting into fighting, shooting and all war things because it’s first fun then it’s the easy way out from being picked on just because they are different don’t have friends. Also, it could be they don’t a family home life to were taking to fighting thinking it will fix things or taking their own life would be better than talking to someone. These events get us to think, what could we do to end these events from happening; but why, as I think about how everywhere we go; we hide the differences we have just so we can fit in. Hiding the way you are for, can wear on you. I know there could be other things which could drive someone to hurt others, or for a person to shoot a school. It is hard knowing that we never know when our life will change.
Love to love on others
Sharing love and light is my mission.
Oh yeah I have Cp, but it doesn’t stop me from helping others!
life can be amazing between, having great friends, who are always by your side also knowing your difference doesn’t matter to them; you are supported during the times when you are going through a hard time, those times are when we need to know we are loved the most. when you are down and feeling as if your life is not going the way you had hoped; the feeling like giving up on your dreams. But having that person who has been there with you through those times is hard to come by. Believing in you could help more than we could know!
Love is everything. Are you going through something hard, sometimes we need to remember to love with everything you have! Someone might need you, more than you know. You could be the only light they have. Maybe we don’t see it, but to them it matters!
I’ve been thinking about this idea that if you have a difference you are looked at or people thought of as you can’t do much, or people just don’t try to understand what you going through. Maybe you are in a wheelchair and you get locked at as you are a child, why? Or you have depression and or mental health problems, you have to deal with all the bad things that people can say to put you down. I want to change the world sees people who are different!
Happiness is like the sunshine it comes in the right timing. When you ‘ve had it, it’s a friend who has never left your side. It is your outlook on life! Know that what you are doing is what you are meant to do.
Love is everything. When everything else gets too much love is the power which can get you through anything!
This month is CP awareness month it is a part of me. I think it has made me who I am, I want to help people to understand that just because I have CP doesn’t mean my life is not amazing! I do everything just like anyone but I need help. Living with cp can be hard, especially when the kind is not like most, I have to work harder to find the right things which will help me do the things I love. But I am happy the way I am!
Be the sunlight in someone’s life. You may not know what they are going through, just be there in the best way you can. Love is needed it can heal when nothing can. It’s the best thing you can give someone!