Why I’m Speaking Up About How Suicide Is Discussed in the Emergency Room Sally Buchanan-Hagen Sally Buchanan-Hagen Read more: http://themighty.com/2015/09/why-im-speaking-up-about-how-suicide-is-discussed-in-the-emergency-room

As a nurse working in the emergency department, I frequently see people come in for suicide attempts. I’ve noticed there’s a stigma surrounding some attempts, and many colleagues agree there’s a difference in the way patients are treated depending on the type of attempt.

From what I’ve seen, a patient whose attempt is more “serious,” with visible life-threatening injuries or potentially deadly pathology results, is more likely to be treated with understanding, compassion and patience. It’s as if serious injuries validate the mental illness, making the inner turmoil visible to the outside world.

But the “less serious” the attempt is (for example, taking a non-lethal amount of medication or self-inflicted injuries that aren’t fatal), the less sympathy I’ve seen patients receive. This can also be said for patients who have repeat suicide attempts. I’ve heard these patients referred to as “time-wasters,” “attention-seekers,” “taking up beds,” and they’re described as “crying out for help.” Although it’s acknowledged as wrong, there’s still anger and frustration felt towards the patient. I’ve heard many question the reason for their behavior. But I believe anyone who intentionally puts themselves in harm’s way needs help, regardless of the intended outcome, and are still entitled to be treated with dignity, understanding and kindness. 

When I was 23, I tried to jump off a cliff after being discharged from a psychiatric hospital. I have bipolar affective disorder. I rarely call this a suicide attempt, although I would’ve jumped if it weren’t for a person walking past. If that person didn’t talk me down from the edge I wouldn’t be here today. I didn’t end up in an emergency department that night; instead the person called the local psychiatric triage team for advice and made sure I got home safely. The next morning my psychiatrist arranged for me to have electroconvulsive therapy (ECT).

I was determined to take my life. However, just because I didn’t end up in the emergency department didn’t make my determination to kill myself less serious. For weeks afterwards I remained suicidal. It’s because of my wonderful family and excellent psychiatrist I got through those weeks alive.

According to the World Health Organization, 800,000 people commit suicide every year, and for every successful suicide there are many more people who attempt it. About 20 percent of people who die by suicide have made a prior suicide attempt. But the stigma attached to suicide can be isolating and discourages help-seeking behaviors.

When I was suicidal I was too embarrassed to ask for help from emergency services because I thought I would be judged. That night I stood on the cliff, dying seemed like the only way out. Like a lot of suicidal behaviors, the decision was driven by desperation and impulsivity. The method didn’t matter — only the end result. I was only seconds from death. By complete luck I survived that depression.

In seems people are fearful if we talk about suicide we’ll trigger risky behaviors. But if we don’t talk about it, how are we going to understand it? If we don’t understand it, how can we be compassionate and empathetic? And if we don’t treat those at risk with compassion and empathy, how do we expect them to seek help?

Most importantly, we need to make it known reaching out for help is one of the bravest and best things someone can do. I’ve heard nurses say it’s “heartbreaking” when patients die from a suicide attempt. But what’s more heartbreaking is how often I hear families say the person they lost had been “been unhappy for a long time’” or that “they tried suicide before.” We need to talk about suicide to offer people hope. The courage it takes to reach out must be recognized. 

Every suicide attempt needs to be taken seriously. People don’t kill themselves, mental illness does. The sooner we start understanding this, the sooner we can combat the stigma surrounding suicide. Decreasing stigma encourages help-seeking behaviors and leads to more widespread and compassionate treatment for those who need it. And this treatment needs to be available for everyone however long they need, not just for the people who end up with serious injuries in the emergency department.

If you or someone you know needs help, please visit the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline. You can also reach the Crisis Text Line by texting “START” to 741-741. Head here for a list of crisis centers around the world.

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11 Things Those Who Love A Person With Mental Illness Should Know Knowledge is power.

Relationships are challenging for anyone, but for someone battling a mental health condition, that illness can often hinder more than help. A mental health disorder acts like a magnifying glass to problems. It convinces the sufferer that they don’t deserve someone’s affection. It can cause them to be distant.

In other words? It’s total hell.

The good news is, knowledge is power when it comes to mental illness. Just because someone suffers from a condition doesn’t make them broken. Below are a few things you should know if you love someone who has a mental health disorder.

1. Mental illness is not something they can just “get over.”
It takes time, treatment and acceptance to manage a mental health condition. A mental illness develops in the brain, making it very complex. It’s not something that’s “all in their heads” or a problem they can “snap out of” (although, they wish they could!).

2. It also doesn’t make them “crazy.”
You wouldn’t call someone with cancer “insane” or “crazy,” so the same courtesy should be extended to someone with a mental health condition. Mental illness is just as important as physical illness. Here are a few other terms that should also be avoided.

3. Some days are better than others.
One day they’ll feel excellent, but the next day getting out of bed is a victory in itself. And they never know when it’ll happen.

4. Their mood isn’t because of you.
It can feel like they’re upset with you, but please know it isn’t personal. Many mental health conditions are characterized by mood swings, including feelings of anger, depression and mania.

5. It’s manageable…
Through therapy, through medication, through exercise, through group support… the list is endless. However, it’s important to remember that treatment is not “one size fits all,” so what works for your cousin’s co-worker may not work for them. And that’s OK.

6. …But some days they don’t feel like fighting it.
And that can feel like the absolute worst. Experts recommend encouraging them to go to their appointments or whatever is necessary in their treatment process. Don’t give up on them on the days they’ve given up on themselves.

7. There’s a negative stereotype associated with their conditions.
There’s a large stigma attached to mental health disorders. Only 25 percent of people with a mental illness feel that others are compassionate or understanding of their condition. Your compassion means more than you’ll ever know.

8. Hugs help.
So do phone calls. Or texts. Or ice cream. Or anything that just lets them know that they’re not alone.”It may look incredibly bleak for them right now,” Adam Kaplin, an associate professor in the departments of psychiatry and neurology at Johns Hopkins, previously told HuffPost. “It’s helpful to remind them that the feelings are temporary and you’ll be right there with them.”

9. It’s OK to ask them questions.
Education is half the battle. The more you learn about their condition, the easier it is for you to understand. That being said, if they don’t want to talk about what’s going on in that moment, don’t push the issue. Silence doesn’t mean they don’t want your help, they just may be doing their own processing.

10. It’s physically debilitating.
Psychiatric illnesses don’t just mess with their emotions. Conditions like depression and anxiety can cause headaches, soreness, upset stomach and more.

11. They appreciate you.
Even if they don’t express it every day. Your support and patience is vital to their treatment and self-acceptance. So thank you.



The symptoms of exocrine and endocrine pancreatic cancers are often different, so they are described separately.

Having one or more of the symptoms below does not mean you have pancreatic cancer. In fact, many of these symptoms are more likely to be caused by other conditions. Still, if you have any of these symptoms, it’s important to have them checked by a doctor so that the cause can be found and treated, if needed.

Signs and symptoms of exocrine pancreatic cancer

Early pancreatic cancers often do not cause any signs or symptoms. By the time they do cause symptoms, they have often already grown through the pancreas or spread beyond it.

Jaundice and related symptoms

Jaundice is yellowing of the eyes and skin. Most people with pancreatic cancer (and virtually all people with ampullary cancer) will have jaundice as one of their first symptoms.

Jaundice is caused by the buildup of bilirubin, a dark yellow-brown substance made in the liver. Normally, the liver excretes bilirubin as part of a liquid called bile. Bile goes through the common bile duct into the intestines, eventually leaving the body in the stool. When the common bile duct becomes blocked, bile can’t reach the intestines, and the level of bilirubin in the body builds up.

Cancers that start in the head of the pancreas are near the common bile duct. These cancers can press on the duct and cause jaundice while they are still fairly small, which may allow these tumors to be found at an early stage. But cancers that start in the body or tail of the pancreas don’t press on the duct until they have spread through the pancreas. By this time, the cancer has often spread beyond the pancreas as well.

When pancreatic cancer spreads, it often goes to the liver. This can also lead to jaundice.

Dark urine: Sometimes, the first sign of jaundice is darkening of the urine from bilirubin. As bilirubin levels in the blood increase, the urine becomes brown in color.

Light-colored stools: If the bile duct is blocked, bile (and bilirubin) can’t get through to the bowel. When this happens, a person might notice their stools becoming lighter in color.

Itchy skin: When bilirubin builds up in the skin, it can start to itch as well as turning yellow.

Pancreatic cancer is not the most common cause of jaundice. Other causes, such as gallstones, hepatitis, and other liver diseases, are much more common.

Abdominal or back pain

Pain in the abdomen (belly) or back is common in pancreatic cancer. Cancers that start in the body or tail of the pancreas can grow fairly large and start to press on other nearby organs, causing pain. The cancer may also spread to the nerves surrounding the pancreas, which often causes back pain. Of course, pain in the abdomen or back is fairly common and is most often caused by something other than pancreatic cancer.

Weight loss and poor appetite

Unintended weight loss is very common in people with pancreatic cancer. These people often have little or no appetite.

Digestive problems

Pale, greasy stools: If cancer blocks the release of the pancreatic juice into the intestine, a person might not be able to digest fatty foods. The undigested fat can cause stools to be unusually pale, bulky, greasy, and to float in the toilet.

Nausea and vomiting: If the cancer presses on the far end of the stomach it can partly block it, making it hard for food to get through. This can cause nausea, vomiting, and pain that tend to be worse after eating.

Gallbladder enlargement

If the cancer blocks the bile duct, bile can build up in the gallbladder, which then becomes enlarged. This can sometimes be felt by a doctor (as a large lump under the right ribcage) during a physical exam. It can also be detected by imaging tests.

Blood clots

Sometimes, the first clue that someone has pancreatic cancer is the development of a blood clot in a large vein, often in the leg. This is called a deep venous thrombosis or DVT. Symptoms can include pain, swelling, redness, and warmth in the affected leg. Sometimes a piece of the clot can break off and travel to the lungs, which might make it hard to breathe or cause chest pain. A blood clot in the lungs is called a pulmonary embolism or PE.

Still, having a blood clot does not usually mean that you have cancer. Most blood clots are caused by other things.

Fatty tissue abnormalities

Some people with pancreatic cancer develop an uneven texture of the fatty tissue underneath the skin. This is caused by the release of the pancreatic enzymes that digest fat.


Rarely, pancreatic cancers cause diabetes (high blood sugar) because they destroy the insulin-making cells. Symptoms can include feeling thirsty and hungry, and having to urinate often. More often, there are small changes in blood sugar levels that don’t cause symptoms of diabetes but can still be detected with blood tests.

Signs and symptoms of pancreatic neuroendocrine tumors

Pancreatic neuroendocrine tumors (NETs) often release excess hormones into the bloodstream. Different types of tumors make different hormones, which lead to different symptoms.


These tumors make gastrin, a hormone that tells the stomach to make more acid. Too much gastrin causes a condition known as Zollinger-Ellison syndrome, in which the stomach makes too much acid. This leads to stomach ulcers, which can cause pain, nausea, and loss of appetite. Severe ulcers can start bleeding. If the bleeding is mild, it can lead to anemia (too few red blood cells), which can cause symptoms like feeling tired and being short of breath. If the bleeding is more severe, it can make stool black and tarry. Severe bleeding can itself be life-threatening.

If the stomach acid reaches the small intestine, it can damage the cells of the intestinal lining and break down digestive enzymes before they have a chance to digest food. This can cause diarrhea and weight loss.


These tumors make glucagon, a hormone that increases glucose levels in the blood. Most of the symptoms that can be caused by a glucagonoma are mild and more often are found to be caused by something else.

Excess glucagon can raise blood sugar, sometimes leading to diabetes. This can cause symptoms such as feeling thirsty and hungry, and having to urinate often.

People with these tumors also often have problems with diarrhea, weight loss, and malnutrition. The nutrition problems can lead to symptoms like irritation of the tongue (glossitis) and the corners of the mouth (angular cheilosis).

The symptom that brings most people with glucagonomas to their doctor is a rash called necrolytic migratory erythema. It is a red rash with swelling and blisters that often travels place to place on the skin. It is the most distinctive feature of a glucagonoma.


These tumors make insulin, which lowers blood glucose levels. Too much insulin leads to low blood sugar (hypoglycemia), which can cause symptoms like weakness, confusion, sweating, and rapid heartbeat. When blood sugar gets very low, it can lead to a person passing out or even going into a coma and having seizures.


These tumors make somatostatin, which helps regulate other hormones. Symptoms of this type of tumor can include diarrhea, gallbladder problems, and symptoms of diabetes (feeling thirsty and hungry, and having to urinate often). The problems with the gallbladder can lead to belly pain, nausea, poor appetite, and jaundice (yellowing of the skin and eyes).

The early symptoms of a somatostatinoma tend to be mild and are more often caused by other things, so these tumors tend to be diagnosed at an advanced stage. Often, they are not found until they spread to the liver, when they cause problems like jaundice and pain.


These tumors make a substance called vasoactive intestinal peptide (VIP). Too much VIP can lead to problems with diarrhea. This may be mild at first, but gets worse over time. By the time they are diagnosed, most people have severe, watery diarrhea, with many bowel movements each day.

People with these tumors also tend to have low levels of acid in their stomachs, leading to problems digesting food. They may also have high blood sugar levels.


These tumors make pancreatic polypeptide (PP), which helps regulate both the exocrine and endocrine pancreas. They can cause problems such as belly pain and an enlarged liver. Some patients also get watery diarrhea.

Carcinoid tumors

These tumors often make serotonin or its precursor, 5-HTP. When a pancreatic tumor makes these substances, they first travel to the liver. The liver breaks these substances down before they can reach the rest of the body and cause problems. Because of this, carcinoid tumors often don’t cause symptoms until they spread outside the pancreas.

When these tumors do spread, it is most often to the liver. There, the cancer cells can release hormones directly into the blood leaving the liver. This can cause the carcinoid syndrome, with symptoms including flushing (skin turning red with a warm feeling), diarrhea, wheezing, and a rapid heart rate. These symptoms often occur in episodes, between which the person may feel fine.

Over a long time, the hormone-like substances released by these tumors can damage heart valves, causing shortness of breath, weakness, and a heart murmur (an abnormal heart sound).

Non-functioning neuroendocrine tumors

These tumors don’t make excess hormones, so they don’t cause symptoms in early stages and often grow quite large before they are found. Most of these are cancers and start to cause problems as they get larger or spread outside the pancreas. Symptoms can be like those from exocrine pancreas cancers, including jaundice (yellowing of the eyes and skin), belly pain, and weight loss.

Symptoms caused by the cancer spreading

When pancreatic NETs spread, they most often spread to the liver. This can enlarge the liver, which can cause pain and loss of appetite. It can also affect liver function, sometimes leading to jaundice (yellowing of the skin and eyes) and abnormal lab tests.

Although these cancers often spread to the liver first, they can go on to spread to other organs and tissues. The symptoms depend on where the cancer is growing. For example, cancer spread to the lungs can cause shortness of breath or a cough. Spread to bones can cause pain in those bones.
Last Medical Review: 06/11/2014
Last Revised: 01/09/2015

Thanksgiving 2015

The one thing I’m the most thankful for is LOVE!  Family and friends who don’t care about my crazy cp  and I have about five best friends whom I don’t think my life would be this amazing without each of them!   I could not say how much they mean to me!!  I have so much to be thankful for I don’t think I could write everything down.   I have a great life and I am so thankful for it all!   I love that I can help others thought writing because helping others is my dream.   So thank you for following me and letting me what I love!     Happy Thanksgiving!  Oh yeah and just because today is Thanksgiving doesn’t mean that we can’t think about what we are thankful for everyday of the year.

If you love someone, tell them. For hearts are often broken by words left unspoken.
Tell people that you love them, even if you have to say it in your own way. Love is the light that this world truly needs and unless we are willing to show each other that love still rules the world, the world will continue to become a darker place for us all.

Let your light shine by being a vessel through which peace and love flow. Show others how to co-exist by remaining true to yourself and encouraging others to do the same. Be an example to the world of what being a positive person full of grace looks like. Never let any circumstance dampen your smile, and always seek to include those who are the most excluded.

The most powerful thing on this planet is the love that we are willing to give. Empower people knowing that the more good you do, the more that you will attract good things to happen in your own life.



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This is so scary;



Oh boy it’s hard to give thanks for people and things in life when I think about people in my life hurting and knowing a friend is going through losing her second son.  But at the same time I know that I am so grateful for each person in my life!   Right I’m saying I love you like crazy;  because I realize how much everyday is a gift and really we don’t know what will be today you could have everything you want and need , the next your life could change, life changes so so easily we always need to let people in our lives know how much they mean to us.  I want to give thanks to everyone who is important in my life;  I’m so happy that I have so much love from friends who now are a part of my family . And I am very happy that I have a amazing family that all over the world but we are still close!  


I’m thankful for dancing!   I love love dancing!   I love having music on and going crazy when a favorite song comes on.   

In honor of International Survivors of Suicide Loss Day

Life is amazing,  but for those who do not have love and support life can be hard.   Depression is something we can help with love and support,  we all go through hard times.   Trust me I’ve had times that I had to take a good look at all I can do,  sometimes having Cerebral palsy, can be hard especially when your body does not do what you want or when you have to have help with so much;  for me having times when I put myself down just because it doesn’t go the way I wanted it to but having support is what let’s me feel good about the things I had a hard time with.  I have known friends who have felt alone and or not good enough to have love in their lives,  to that guess what I say!  You are prefer you are special and you are YOU there is no like you!   Don’t think you are not loved or you don’t deserve love!   You do!   I know that depression is a sickness and that I don’t understand what it’s like to have feelings but I want to say that you are not alone there is love in your life;  friends who can help.   Love yourself because you are amazing and loved!  


So thankful for love,  fun days and my sister Aloura.  Having a sister we have so much fun together now we live together.  She was first my aid but now she is my best friend and sister.   I have two amazing sisters which I don’t couldn’t be more thankful that they have become family ! Love you!

If You Love Someone, Tell Them;  If you love someone, tell them. For hearts are often broken by words left unspoken.
Tell people that you love them, even if you have to say it in your own way. Love is the light that this world truly needs and unless we are willing to show each other that love still rules the world, the world will continue to become a darker place for us all.

Let your light shine by being a vessel through which peace and love flow. Show others how to co-exist by remaining true to yourself and encouraging others to do the same. Be an example to the world of what being a positive person full of grace looks like. Never let any circumstance dampen your smile, and always seek to include those who are the most excluded.

The most powerful thing on this planet is the love that we are willing to give. Empower people knowing that the more good you do, the more that you will attract good things to happen in your own life.



“Life isn’t about waiting for the storm to pass… It’s about learning to dance in the rain.”
— Vivian Greene


I know so thankful for my very best friend!  This year I got to talk to her everyday.  When she had to deal with so much,  I wanted to be there for her,  but she was not going to let that hard time stop her from having life.   I think I got more out of speeding time with her and talking to her about everything.   I knew our friendship was strong but now I know it’s a little stronger!   I know we will always be close!   


 I am thankful for great night with a friend. . And I am thankful when I can do something special for a special friend! I have realized that best way to be there for someone is not just being with them but when you can’t be right next to them,  if you make sure everyday that they know how much they mean to you!   We never know when life will change so each day tell someone ” I love you”!

Before me Light
Behind me Light
Above me Light
Below me Light
All Light surround me
All Light within me
I am Light

Heart and Soul matters

7 Things To Do When Someone You Love Is Diagnosed With Cancer

Cancer is a horrible, horrible illness. Finding out someone you love very much can be very scary and upsetting. You will feel helpless as your loved one battles the biggest fight of their life, but there are some small and simple steps you can take to make them feel a little better.

1. Make them a personal support page.
For example, when my mother was diagnosed with lung cancer, I made her a support page on Facebook that over 700 people joined. From friends to family to strangers, the amount of love, prayers, support, and encouraging words she received was amazing. She enjoyed seeing how many people loved her and were cheering her on. I truly believe it gave her a little bit of extra strength.

2. Show them the meaning of hope.
Hope is never giving up. Hope is continuing to fight no matter how much it hurts. Hope is some times the only thing left to hold on to. Show them what hope is, show them that you will never give up on hope and they shouldn’t either.

3. Listen.
If they need a shoulder to cry on, lend them yours. If they need an ear that will listen to them, let them talk for hours. Don’t tell them you understand what they’re going through, because the truth is, you don’t. Just be there for them.

4. Keep things normal.
Although things aren’t normal, and cancer just plain old sucks, don’t pity them or show them that you feel sorry for them. Offer them help, but never force it upon them. If they decline your help, accept it. They don’t want to be treated differently and I can promise you if they do need your help, they will ask for it or say yes the first time you offer.

5. Support their decisions, even if you do not agree with them.
Whether it be a decision about their treatment or anything else, respect that decision of theirs. After all it is their life and their body, they know and feel what is best for themselves.

6. Educate yourself on the type of cancer they have been diagnosed with.
Do some research, know some information. It will give you a slight idea of what they are dealing with and the more you know, the easier it will be for them to explain certain “cancer things: to you.

7. Love them.
Plain and simple. Give them all the love you have in your heart. Hug them a little tighter, hold them a little longer. Let them know how loved and supported they are.


Sometimes, all you need is for someone just to be there, even if they can’t solve your problems. Just knowing there is someone who cares can make all the difference.
— Unknown Author


Thankful for everything I have; I know healthy and I have so much in my life to be thankful for!  I know there are times that I have wished that some things could be different from time to time; we all get that way sometimes. I used to think it I love others to much but now that I think I understand how much love can give us true happiness, I am very thankful that I have love in my world, I have the best mom in the world and brothers and two amazing dads.   Not only all those people but I have greatest best friends who are now apart of my family,  I have a second mom, sisters I couldn’t be more grateful!   Having friendships that somehow became apart of your family is the greatest gift ever!   Especially when your family lives around the world,  it can be great having family in different countries to get to go visit but most of the time it’s hard.   My best friends who I think of a family;  it doesn’t mean that I love my friends more than my mom and brothers it means that my mom and I never have to be alone we know we can always find someone to talk or who will help us if we need it.   I just wanted to give thanks to every person in my life,  I am so happy,  loved and to me that is the best gift I could ever have!   ! 

Days14 15

Yesterday I went to an event which was the opening of a new place called project walk, they work with people with disabilities to help us with our physical strength and work on walking.   I was able to go because I work with Ms. Wheelchair Colorado and I am so thankful that,  that organization does it is so great for women in wheelchairs.   When I was Ms. Wheelchair Colorado2010, I thought it would only one year that I would be Ms. Wheelchair, but no I will always be Ms. Wheelchair Colorado  2010!  Now that I run Ms. Colorado it’s more apart of my life and I am so thankful that it is apart of my life!  I am going to try out project walk and maybe they can help me.   Today I am thankful for a long walks I love going for walks with my dog.  It is a nice way to think and just be out.  

I’ve been really thinking about doing a information page for cancer research that I am going to start looking into.  This sickness can impact not the person who has it or has just through all the treatment and surgeries; it also the people who love that.   When a family member had it, I was freaking out until I understood what they would go through even then knowing that someone you love is sick it hard especially when you can’t help them.   I know I started this blog I wanted to help people who have depression and then it kind of changed to be about love because love can help everything I think.  If someone who is dealing with something hard if they know that someone is behind them it just makes that time a little easier for them.   And now that I have seen how much just being there when someone really needs it, its so powerful when your loved one knows that they have support.  So I am going to add a new part to my blog of information about cancer and other sickness that can impact someone’s life.   We can give someone light of love by supporting them through lifes hardest times!   

Sometimes, all you need is for someone just to be there, even if they can’t solve your problems. Just knowing there is someone who cares can make all the difference. — Unknown Author

“You can only hide from yourself in the noise, but not in the quiet. If you truly want to get to know yourself, then get rid of the distractions. If you want to really understand what has been holding you back, then simply and calmly focus your full attention within, and observe.”
Bryant McGill


I’m thankful for dancing and music! I love music that when I hear that song it makes me think about a special time or person. And I love to dance!

A new idea for this blog

I’ve been and talking to a friend about my blog; everyone knows how much I want to help others. My friend told me that I should think about doing like a cancer informing page on my blog, where I have articles about things or foods that could help keep your healthy. It seems like more and more people are dealing with it my mother, family members and friends. Let me know what you guys think. Should I have a information tab on my blog?

 Please let me know what you think.

The key to personal growth is having a positive attitude. Having a positive attitude gives you the strength to move forward. You are strong never weak, respect yourself, have pride about yourself, you are the only person that can make you happy. You want to feel great about yourself, start loving you and create a better life living the dream of you. Never feel sorry for yourself, open up your heart and see with it, feel the beauty of life and breathe in the winds of love. Give your heart to life and gift your love ~~ Lee Held;;
i really like this saying..

Day11; 15

I am thankful for angels crazy idea right?   But there are such things as angles,  when life gets hard there are angles looking out for you!   Maybe it’s someone you know family member or a friend.   Today I’m thankful that I could feel one beside me when I needed it.  

Live simply. Dream big. Be grateful. Give love. Laugh lots. — Paulo Coelho


This is to someone who is so incredibly special to me I’m writing about her because I am so thankful for her!  Also I’ve been thinking so much her lately.   Life has a weird way of giving me the best people to be a part of life,  this lady has thinks that I’m always there, but she been there for me in so many ways.  I don’t see her a lot but when I do it’s so special!  

“You are unrepeatable. There is a magic about you that is all your own…” — D.M. Dellinger

Day9; 15

Thinking about what I’m thankful for today. Well I guess I didn’t write one for yesterday.I’m really bad at this this year,, I am thankful for every time I can help others and if I could write that every day I would!  That is how much I love doing things for family and friends! I guess you can I try to put others first;everyone who knows me knows I need a lot of help daily with many everything.  I’m so thankful that I have so much love around me always, that I know I don’t have to be something I not! Which I know that there are have cp and even people who do not feel loved like no one will be there when they need it. How can that be? I wish I could send love to those who need it! That is why I started this blog and it’s a something I can do on my own. Today I’m thankful for loved ones! 


“Gratitude is the single most important ingredient to living a successful and fulfilled life.”
— Jack Canfield

Day7 2015

Day7; I am thankful for memories.  Memories that reminds us about the good times;  if you are going through a hard time.   Thinking about a time so special can bring a smile to your face,  maybe it’s something so little but it stayed with you and when you really something to change your day it comes to you!

spect and kindness. Allow these words, my thoughts and feelings, to create within you a new concept of your own power — your power of kindness. Accept this transmission like a mind-virus or a program to run in your consciousness. As it has been said by so many people, you become your thoughts. You are first and foremost a creator, but most importantly, you are a creator of yourself. Meditate on these concepts and words, and then create a feeling of well-being and amenity within yourself. Develop your power of kindness and then use it to create immense goodwill in your own life, and in the lives of others.

— Bryant McGill

Day6. I’m thankful that we can give ourselves to help those who need love and support.

To love a person is to learn the song that is in their heart, and to sing it to them when they have forgotten.

Love the people God gave you because one day he will need them back.
Cherish life, and everything that it entails. Especially the relationships that you have with others. Do this because the relationships that you have with others will be the strongest testament to your life when you are gone. When we pass on, the memory of us will be passed on by the people who loved us most.

This means that we have to be willing to make time for the people in our lives that are most important. If you love someone be sure to show that someone how you feel. Give them your time, even when it’s inconvenient. Be a true lover, friend, son, daughter, father, mother, and so on by spreading the love you have inside of you to the people you love on a regular basis.

Let your love be known. You’ll never know the last time you’ll be able to. Tomorrow is promised to no man. ”


OK so I don’t think I’m able to come up with what I’m thankful each day,  but that doesn’t mean I am not thankful for each day.   Each day I think about someone who I am so thankful that they are in my life!   If I were to write about each one; first I don’t think I could pick who to do first,  and it would take all year!   But there are a few people who are the most important like my family, mom and best friends who are like my family.   But mostly I’m thankful for the people in my life. .

Pain is like a healing emotional fever. Allow your pain to cleanse you and burn away what needs to die. A new and better you will grow from the ashes. The most important parts of your life will be marked by pain. Some of the most amazing people in the world were not perfect; they were scarred by suffering, hardships, losses and imperfections. But, when they recovered, they were stronger, wiser, and more loving and compassionate. Your life is going to get better in the proper time, and you will be stronger and more at peace than ever before. Out of our suffering we emerge. Our struggles are really our only hope. Stay strong.

— Bryant McGill