This week coming up my dance team is going to Vegas to try out for America’s got talent! My dance group is made of all different kind of disabilities; the founder is my friend and caregiver also a great dancer!   She wanted to find a way that people with disabilities to get movement and became an every week class named Dancing with Friends!   We all love dancing;  it’s so much fun; now we’re going to do big.   America’s got talent, I’m so excited for a week of lot of dancing and fun.

I am so excited there is so much that I am excited about; I have been telling you that I am going to start offering to be a mentor; I can now say I am open for business!   You should know a few things about how this will work. First I am disabled so it will take me longer to write to you; I have to use another program for writing it’s helps my writing; second my time with you will be $10 , I am a doctor or anything like that.  But I know what’s its like to be different, left out because other’s don’t understand disabilities.   I have been there many times; it’s not fun having to explain why you are the way you are,  when everyone was some sort of difference.  I’m about love.   This has been my dream ever since I was a child.   I may not be expected but I have an open heart and love to make a difference or even just put some sun in your life.
If you are on facebook we can chat through there or you can email me at varugeslifelove6@gmail.com.
Thanks for your support!

Love, dancing through life I like to see my life!  I don’t always but I would like to think I can be in a place in my life where I can say that I have everything together lol; I don’t.  I have to learn so much still about life coaching or mentoring others; I keep on putting it off to do more studding into the things that would help me get there but I doubt myself like we do sometimes.   This idea keeps on coming back to my heart so that I know it is my calling in life!   So I think I have to go for it and see what happens.

Life is not always easy,  but lately I’ve been blessed.  Living independently from my mom or family.   I have caregivers that came daily to help through the day,  but it’s different than having your mom do your care for me.  I have to tell them what I need  rather than being with family members who knows what I need almost all the time.   I have to learn how to keep the house going and many other things;  I am getting there.   I am very happy that I experiencing what is like to live independently.

I just got new AFO’s yesterday. They are going to make standing so much easier and walks, I am going to be doing a lot more work outs. I know I have to much uncontrollably movement to be able to get to where I could walk on my own. But it may help loosen up legs to make everything I do a little easier. I am excited

Why can’t we just do what our hearts is telling us to do?   It’s a question I ask myself when I listen to what my heart is telling me that I could do;  but I don’t think I can!   Or I don’t want to do it because people might think weird.   When I don’t care how people see me,  I should just do it, and see where the journey go on leads me to;  but no it is not that easy….  I want to love others so much to where I make them uncomfortable or think I’m crazy; when I should not let  others tell how to love.  But I don’t really understand how often we say I love you but we don’t really mean it, I do maybe too much but I am good with it.   Because there is not enough of real love;  it is so needed!

Life is amazing  as I think about what I’ve decided to do bloging as inspire, support and love others through writing; when the funny thing is I can’t spell that well. But I love writing and doing it my childhood wish is actually coming true!  I love it!   I was in a place,  at the beginning of this year where the bad thoughts was not helping, in to thinking that I couldn’t do this.  But it was not me.  We all going through times where the bad thoughts takes over but at some point you get out of it and start moving forward.  Depression has been a topic I feel like I could support.   I didn’t go to school for it,  but it’s been in my heart to others.   Depression among other disability have always interested me. For depression is something people are afraid of, why.  It’s different disability but it is a disability! I know a disability means you need to help and you can’t help who you are because of that differences you can not help it!  All that to say I want to bring more awareness to all kinds of disabilities!

I was in South Africa for the passed few weeks, seeing family and old friends.   I went for my brother’s wedding and what a amazing wedding it was!  It was so special to have my close family together in the same room, even if it was just for a few hours!   It was the best part of the 3 weeks!   A few hours to feel everyone together was so spectacular,  I know we all have own lives so that that day will always be special.   I saw some old places I used to go to.   My school which was awesome.   I loved it all.   I was kind of thinking about if I could live there and still have same independence i have here but I couldn’t,  it’s not safe I  couldn’t be on my  own.   I hate leaving but my life is here.

My Cp or as most people think I got to be Ms. Wheelchair Colorado 2010, because of the way I see life with a disability.   I can say my difficulties in my daily life is not that harder than what you go through;  oh wait,  I need with most every physical education I do.   I have a harder time being understood and I can’t eat on my own or walk and I have movements;  you would think how can I do the things that I like helping others who are in need; because I can.   Helping others is the one thing I can do on my own and I know what is like to need help or just even just to be someone had to talk to.   I don’t think that my Cp stop me from having a life,  so what if I’m disability I can do anything I set my mind on!
I am Ms. Wheelchair Colorado 2010, I am still honored to be and I help put on the pageant for  4years now;  I love that I can help a other women who is in a wheelchair get that feeling of so what if I am in a wheelchair I can make a difference!

Love is always bestowed as a gift – freely, willingly and without expectation. We don’t love to be loved; we love to love.~ Leo Buscaglia.

I think this is something I should work on;  loving people because I love to make people feel so special and needed.   I think that is what I am meant to do with my life.   But lately I’ve not been loving and understanding which I am going to change.  I would rather love people without them knowing than being all about me.

My job with Accessible-systems and Living a life of love within yourself are coming together.

I love helping others that has been my dream; I am also disabled and know how hard life can be when you are different!   I have recently got a job with Accessible-systems; writing articles.  I have been thinking about combining the two, they are very important to me.     Depression is one topic I’m very interested in, and a few other topics that could come up if you are disabled or even if you have a difference which no one understands.   Why is that;  when we are all different?  Everything that I love doing can be connected .  So there will be more to come about disabilities, differences between them and of course how we can all support each other.

Happy Valentine’s Day

I have time to do this tonight, before my weekend and up coming days get crazy with a new puppy,  things could be a little different for a while.   But I’m so excited to have a puppy!   I pick him up on Sunday,  what a gift for Valentine’s Day!  Valentine’s Day is a day to show the people who you hold close just how much they mean to you!  If only we could do that everyday and not feel weird about it.   I love others a little too much, loving on someone who needs it or you just want them to know to know that they mean so much to you.   How do you do it? How much can you love someone without making them feel like you are weird?   I ask myself that question all the time,  because I just love so much that sometimes I want to do so much for someone to show them how much they mean to me,  forgetting that just saying that they are loved can mean so much just by itself.  So if you are like me,  just remember you can say I love you everyday you can just say that and they will know that they mean a lot to you!  Remember having love in your life does not just mean your boyfriend or girlfriend its for everyone thinks you hold close.  

February

Its coming up on one of my favorite holidays is Valentine’s Day and its not because I have a boyfriend or have been in love. I love Valentine’s Day because it’s a day to tell the people in your life how much you love them, its not just for people who are in love. I love the people who help my life that much more special. Maybe Valentine’s Day is me just for  boyfriends and girlfriends, but for me it’s means so much more; I love the people who have been there for me. Maybe more than I should, but that is who I am.  Love is everything. If you could have one word to describe who you are what would would it be; mind would be love!   I think we all have something that means more to us than anything else,  for me it’s doing things for others LOVING others!   !  So you get a big love message from me you now understand why.

Have you thought about why you do what you do?  Or why did you have that calling?   The other day I was telling someone about my blog and I realized the reason why I love helping people,  is because when I was in school I loved to go and spending time in the life skills class room.   Where the kids in there were just laying there,  they couldn’t even sit on their own or even eat without something to help them.  They were just there.   So I somehow started going there as a volunteer hour and soon realized how much I loved going and seeing those kids, they would always get excited to see me.   Then a few years later I helped someone without even realizing that they were not happy with who they were, by just being their friend mad,  that person came alive again!   I don’t want to do for it the money I do this because I love that feeling of’ helping someone who might look fine but really they are not happy, with who they are! 

Hey friends! Here is an article from where I ride; they did a small story about me! I thought you would like to read it!

”FOR IMMEDIATE RELEASE CONTACT: Sheryl Clossen
DATE: October 9, 2015 PHONE: 303-731-9057
EMAIL: xsap@aol.com
Cerebral Palsy and Therapeutic Riding
Cerebral Palsy is a name for a group of disorders affecting muscle control. People with cerebral palsy
have brain damage that prevents the brain from sending signals to other parts of the body responsible for
movement. Since muscles help us move anything in our body, cerebral palsy can affect a person’s ability to
eat, walk, talk or make facial movements. Every year 5000+ are diagnosed nationwide.
Zara Z Kruska Vargus lives with Cerebral Palsy. She dreams of building her online startup that
encourages others. “Live a Life of Love within Yourself” is meant to help people embrace who they are. (http://
livingalifeoflove.com) Zara is passionate about many things but her greatest angst comes when others
underestimate her abilities. She wants people to take the time to get to know her before assuming anything.
Zara loves her time at The Right Step, Inc. She has been riding horses her whole life and at The
Right Step, Inc. for 4 years and celebrates it. On Snoopy, she is free from her wheelchair and enjoys riding in
the arena and on the trail. She says, “Snoopy understands how to adjust his body for her needs and he
always makes her laugh.” When asked what she could wish for from The Right Step, Inc. Her only comment
was that she would love to ride more. She is grateful for every moment.
The Right Step, Inc is located in Littleton, Colorado at Coventry Farms. It is a PATH Intl. Premier
Accredited Therapeutic Riding Program. For clients with cerebral palsy, experiences with horses can provide
increased core strength, muscle relaxation, balance recovery, and a multitude of other benefits. The Right
Step Inc. is a Medicaid approved program.
To learn more about specific successes, scheduling and program information, please contact The
Right Step, Inc Program Director Sheryl Clossen at 303-731-9057 or xsap@aol.com.
Discover the healing power of horses!!
7990 S. Santa Fe Dr., Littleton, CO 80120 or PO Box 271, Littleton, CO 80160
www.therightstepinc.org

How do you make someone feel so loved, without being too overwhelming.  When you can feel that more than anything else they need to be loved.  Love has a way to heal, there is so much love can help.  Making someone know that they are loved, when you can feel that they need to know that someone is always there for them!  If I could only help support someone by loving them I will!  So much of what life throws at us, we could handle it better I think if we knew how much just saying ”I Love You”, could make someone’s day that much better!  I sometimes think that I love others too much,  but  then I realize that no loving the people in my life who may need it;  its just something I do!   Loving people is what I know I was meant to do.   We all have something that we think it’s weird but if it’s calling us we should keep doing it!  

Life is amazing

I was away last week at a camp for people with disabilities. I loved it so much,the people there were amazing, they knew that everyone who was there have different abilities but we were all there to do something fun and push ourselves, if you saw what the schedule looked like you would think that this camp was for ”so called normal adults” we did things like water rafting, rock climbing and cycling. It was great, I did it all last summer as well. I love doing those kind of things it’s stuff that I didn’t think I would like doing but loved it!

disabilities

I can’t walk but it doesn’t mean I can’t think or that I have a learning disability.   I am physically disabled!   Sometimes when I am out with family, friends and or on my own,  I will sometimes get a person who will act as if I can’t think or they will talk to me in  ”baby talk”, if I am with someone they will talk to them about me!  I understand that some people are not comfortable with people who have a disability, but why?   When we all have some kind of difference we all have some kind of disability which is what makes us unique.   So why is it so weird that I can’t walk and I talk funny,  there is nothing wrong with my mind!   If you have questions about my disability you can ask me not the person I’m with. I have CP, so what!   There is so much more about me than just my disability!   

I have so much to be thankful for this week,  it was my birthday yesterday and my day was amazing.   I realize more every year that gifts are not important as love.   The love I know I have in my life is truly all that I am wish for.   I don’t know how to decide it but it is amazing.   I am very lucky!   !

Love through my Cerebral Palsy

All of my life I have been disabled.   I have to do so many things differently,  I move disabled I even talk differently.   Most of the people in my life have gotten to understand that even if you do things differently I still like to do everything,  I’m not afraid to try to do something than we can laugh at myself for thinking I could do it!  The people who I hold close see me before my Crazy CP as I like to call my disability. I have always needed to have help,  but my family and friends have always been supportive of my CP have never said I couldn’t do something just because I can’t walk.   Love has always been there  I have been through some hard times but knowing that I am loved is what has helped me become who I am today.   I love that I can help others, I think that’s because I have always felt loved.  Now I want to have the people who have been there for me,  I want to show them even more love.   I know how important love is,  so I am going to share it!

My Skye boy.

This week has been hard for me.   I lost my dog he was the best dog, he was my best friend and helper; he definitely knew when he was my aide dog. I still remember that first day when we were looking for a service dog.  My mom went to look at puppies and then brought some back to the van,  so I could pick out one but Skye came right up to me and gave me a puppy kiss he chose me!   It was so mean to be!   He was always by my side .  I would have to say ”Skye go” to not run over him.   After 14years its hard not to him.  P1020136

If you have any ideas for me to write about please let me know. If you would rather message me you can, this page is for you. This is a community where everyone can come to feel loved and if you are in a place in life where you are feeling down on yourself, I hope you will find some inspiration to get you through the hard times. Please free to message me,, please share this page with your family and friends. Thank you so much for your support!

The computer

I have cerebral palsy which means it is hard for me to do a lot on my own,  I have to have help to do anything physical.  So it can be hard to get a job or even just do things on my own or without out the computer,  I know that sounds crazy but I could not do what I love to do which is helping others. Sometimes needing help all the time can be hard and make you feel very needing,  and it doesn’t seem you can do much when you want to be able to have something that you can do without help.   When I realized that I could write on the computer it made a big difference in my life.   I feel as if I could do so much more on the computer then I could before I knew I could write with it.  I know now that I can do something that means so much to me and I can make a difference in people’s lifes with my writing.

What is love? ‪#‎Livealifeoflovewithinyourself‬

I am going to do something different!   Love is my project it’s going to be what this blog will be about.  I have always wanted to find a way to help others,  I thought that I wanted to work with people who have depression but now I know that every issue that I hold close to my heart all have one thing in common is that love is needed!   I know I have been changing my goal for this blog around so much.   But I think I have finally know that everything can be done through love. I would like to have this website be a network for anyone to come here write to me about anything you are having a hard time with,  or if you just want to get inspired,  or even just feel loved!   I will also be writing about my life and the hard things I have to go through, also the great things!

Guide lines

I know I have to learn more about depression to be able to help more people.   This blog, the facebook and twitter are meant to be used as an outlet for people who just need someone to talk to.   I am looking for ideas of what you think I should write about.  I want to have a online community to help and inspire people who are going through depression or even if you are just needing someone to support you. There are so many people who feel as if there is no one who loves them, or even people who don’t think that they are worthy to be loved.   Because they may look different or act differently,  but we are all different.    My hope is to have this blog  become a network that could help so many people who are feeding alone, I also want to bring more awareness to depression;  love is necessary in this world.

 

National Cerebral Palsy Awareness Day.

I have a disability called Cerebral palsy,  it can affect someone in so many different ways, its different for each person who has it.   It affects all my physical movements and my speech,  I use wheelchair to get around.  But it doesn’t stop me from having a full life!   I can do everything I put my mind on I just have to do it differently.  For me life is about making the best of what you have and never giving up on your dreams!

”Reaching for the Stars. A Cerebral Palsy Foundation.
Today is National Cerebral Palsy Awareness Day! It is the first national awareness day for Cerebral Palsy established through Congress via Reaching for the Stars 7 years ago to bring awareness to Cerebral Palsy – the most common motor disability in children impacting more than 800,000 Americans and more than 17,000,0000 people worldwide.
In the past 7 years, we have seen National Cerebral Palsy Day grow into a national effort embraced by parent advocates, clinicians, lawmakers, other organizations and people who have CP themselves (both kids and adults). There has been huge progress made to increase awareness of the need for CP research that can lead to Prevention, Treatment and eventually a Cure and Recovery. The increase in research interest in CP is expanding yearly in both the public and private sectors which means that together we are definitely changing the future of Cerebral Palsy – for those who already have it, and for future generations. We couldn’t be prouder to be volunteers who have worked hard for the past 10 years to make a difference. We will continue to work hard to make a difference for everyone impacted by CP. Special thanks again to Senator Johnny Isakson (GA) and Senator Robert Casey (PA) who co-sponsored National Cerebral Palsy Awareness Day 2015 again for us.
Let’s all stand together today wearing our green for CP Awareness and change the future! ‪#‎GG4CP‬ ‪#‎BeTheChange‬ We will never give up”

cp

Why do we have to go through hard times? I know they make us stronger but sometimes I wish it would never come.  Life can be so hard that I wish that there are more I could do!   When I know that someone very special to me is going through a hard time,  my heart just hurts so much , I can’t take it a way!  I have to be there for my loved one somehow,  love is the key to helping anyone!    But when you feel that is not enough what do you do?   Just do it more!  !  Be there for your loved ones! Do anything you can to let them know that you are there!

I have decided that every once in a few days I will write something about me.  That way my followers can get to know me a little more.

As I said yesterday I have a disability; called Cerebral Palsy there are so many different kinds of Cerebral palsy,  I like to think of mine as the crazy kind!   There are some days I think that my body has taken over and even if I think of what I want to do,  my mind and my body are not on the same page.  I use a power chair to get around, I need a lot of help, from getting out of bed to eating. I am happy with who I am,  but I have been through my share of hard times. Who hasn’t had hard times?   Being different can sometimes be hard to fit in,  coming from south Africa and having a disability made it hard to fit in; in high school.  I had some amazing times and people who still today we are best friends.   Those friends are what helped me get through some of the hardest times, they also had apart of why I want to help others!

Idea

As I am trying to start up a network to help those who has or depression, one of my best friends has told me that I need to do an video  interview on someone who has been through depression.  If anyone is willing to do something like that please let me know. I am still working out the questions that you would answer, I just wanted to get the idea out there.

I have cerebral palsy which for me it effects all my physical movements and needs,so because it’s hard to be understood to others who don’t know me or what my disability is; I decided that I can help others through a network and writing. I know I have a lot to learn about depression, but I feel like this is what I was meant to do help others, I love it!

This is my hope/idea for this blog I would love to get to have a conversation with someone who might be going through a hard time; through email messages or some kind of chat. I have always felt a calling to help others or just be a friend to someone who feels like they don’t have anybody to talk to.

 

Changing times

There are times in life where the way you view things change;  and I think I am going through that time.   I have been taking this class that I think has something to do with this season in my life,  its still new for me;  but I know some changes can be great.   So all that to say;  I may be changing the way I want to take my blog. I am still trying to think of how it will look,  but I still want to help and support others it may include people who have a disability.   I will keep all my followers updated as I have more ideas.