I have Cerebral palsy the crazy kind I like to tell people!  I’m always moving and not because I want to, its uncontrollable yeah I make fun of myself half the time!   I am hard to understand, I like to think I don’t give up easily,  its can get hard but I have to keep going because I know I have the best support team batting with me!   I live on my own but I have a roommate and caregivers that came and go through the day.   Like anyone my age I am in the place in my life, I’m still trying to fugue out what I want to do with my life but I know CP  is not keeping me down!   Cp day is March 25th.

Have you ever imagined your life different?  If you are in a wheelchair; you will understand this more.   I am in a wheelchair and need help getting out of the chair; I am on my own half of the day.   Nominally its ok; I can get my work done or just have some time to myself but what happens if I need to go,,,, or if I need to get out of my chair; I cannot!   I could probably find a way but I can’t go P on my own, that is the only thing about being home alone that sucks!   I was talking to a friend about how I could not imagine how if I could walk and just go wherever I wanted to, I could not see myself as an able-body!  I guess because my CP has always been a part of me, it would be weird to think about me walking!   Its just me, not saying that I am just cp but it is the only thing I know.   Having people help me though my day though life!

‘’Acceptance is the road to all change. If resisting has failed and frustrated you, try to accept what is. As hard as it is to believe, acceptance can open different opportunities for change than resistance. Struggling can sometimes swallow us even deeper into the quicksand of our problems. Difficult problems take time to resolve. The more frantically you pick at knots, the more entangled they can become. To untangle yourself try relaxing. Gently and patiently work with your difficulties and in time you will be freed from what now seems impossible. You are being called to heal yourself, not to agonize over your mistakes. Quit overthinking; this is what surrendering really means. Don’t focus on your problems and don’t obsess about “fixing” things. Avoid forcing “positive thinking.” These thoughts can be psychological irritants. Just leave yourself alone! When you pick at things, they never heal. Simply relax and give yourself some time.— Bryant McGill’’ Change is necessary but it can also be hard.   How do you cope with changes in your life?  Or what helps you?  We sometimes think that asking for help, someone to be with you; many make others think you weak but really we all need help sometimes!   Love is the most important thing we can give someone!

Life does not always make sense,  we’re happy going through life without a worry than the next thing you know;  you feel alone or more different than ever.   And finding a way through the darkness can be the hardest thing.   I am happy person most of the time I do have my times.   But I can understand that there are so many things that could put you down.  I know that nowadays we are so worried about what others think of us to where it can really affect us, but guess what you should love yourself most of all!  Its not easy but you should come first before anyone!   You’re amazing loved special!

Life gets busy the days can seem so short when you are busy.   I’m getting ready to host Ms.  Wheelchair Colorado this Saturday though I love it it’s a lot of work.   Let’s just says it’s hard work but it’s rewarding.  From being a constant 7years ago; and I still think how could I be Ms.  Wheelchair Colorado 2010, thinking back on that your it was probably the best year in the way it helped me to understand that my wheelchair is just a way for me to get around!   I already knew that,  from my family and friends but that year helped!   Seeing others with the same challenges as you, and just learning from them made me want to do more and not just be taken care of.   I could make differences I would have to work for it but after being around women in wheelchairs was what I needed!   The Ms. Wheelchair organization is not about how you look but what you do!   I love that so much a pageant like that doesn’t exist; not only that but having people like you is very helpful.   This is why each year I want to give more women the same opportunity.

Cp month

March is cp awareness month, my idea is instead of an awareness month that promotes treatment and cures why don’t we have a cp pride month that encourages people who have to be proud of cp to be proud of who they are and cerebrates are uniqueness.