Hi, everyone. I know I haven’t done anything to this page in forever. I thought after my year of being Ms. Wheelchair I couldn’t be Ms. Wheelchair 2010, but I now realize that even though it’s not my year, I will always be Ms. Wheelchair CO 2010. I am going to try to post more on here. If I do anything that is around disabilities or my crazy CP, it is because I have been thinking a lot about being Ms. Wheelchair for 10 years now. I can’t get over that I am part of something that can change someone’s outlook on being in a chair. I don’t think enough people know about Ms. Wheelchair America and how important it is, so I want to tell the world how amazing it is. Even 10 years later, I wonder why I got picked to be Ms. Wheelchair CO 2010. I’m working on a business for myself, and I have hiked Mt Elbert. Before I was Ms. Wheelchair, I knew I could do anything I wanted, but because of the way I talk and my movements, there were certain things I thought I couldn’t do. When I went to Ms. Wheelchair, I saw all the people in chairs, and they didn’t let the wheelchair stop them. It gave me confidence to finish college and try some stuff that I would would never think I could do, like hiking a mountain or starting a business. Ms. Wheelchair America, Inc.
Mental health is important to talk about, we don’t because people are nevus to talk about having a mental health problems. Because people don’t see it as a real problem, but it is important to talk your feelings it may be the only thing that helps.. Maybe you will even see that you are special and needed!
Hello everyone, happy belated New year.. I am sorry I haven’t been writing. I’ve been going through some stuff, and I have been reading so much. I’ve been reading when I should have been working on my writing.. I am going to try to write more. I have not feeling like myself lately, I have been sad and unmotivated: some might call it being depressed but I think it’s being in a new place and not knowing many people or not having anything to do, but I do have things to do and people to talk to so I think I need to stop feeling down and and start writing, I don’t have to go out to feel like I am making a difference. I can do that from my blog. So that is what I am going to fouse on, to help me keep motivated!
Looking out on a snowy day, I don’t like snow but watching come down is beautiful. As many other things in life. We don’t always see it, but beauty is in everything we just need to take the time to see it.
Day 8. I’m thankful for my family, and the family that has became so close to me I think of them as family.. My birth family is so far away that it’s nice to have friends that are my 2ed family!
Starting over can be hard but it could be what is needed to grow yourself, in so many ways. But it also gives you anxiety, I’m in that in life, I want this I know it will be great for me, but right now it’s a little hard.. I’m not sure what to do each day. I know it will get better but now I’m going through anxiety but I am not giving in.
You matter.! You are so needed, you are special. These things are not said enough. Saying I love you, can make their day,, you may not know how much those words can change someone’s life.. we need that more than anything else.
Being happy with the way your life is what you make it. Being happy is not how you have but how you look at life!
There is a reason we meet the people have in our lifes
Why we hold some so close
A reason time may take us from them
But we will understand why time puts that person in our lifes
As if they are just what we needed or maybe they are just a gift!
I live in a parry good town, as we all think until something happens. then we start to wonder; if the place we call home is safe. This last Tuesday my friend and I when we heard that there had been a school shooting very close to my home. Another shooting in one of the safes places we send kids, to add to this it is a k-12 school. What is going on with our world these days, not only that but now; children are getting into fighting, shooting and all war things because it’s first fun then it’s the easy way out from being picked on just because they are different don’t have friends. Also, it could be they don’t a family home life to were taking to fighting thinking it will fix things or taking their own life would be better than talking to someone. These events get us to think, what could we do to end these events from happening; but why, as I think about how everywhere we go; we hide the differences we have just so we can fit in. Hiding the way you are for, can wear on you. I know there could be other things which could drive someone to hurt others, or for a person to shoot a school. It is hard knowing that we never know when our life will change.
Love is everything. Are you going through something hard, sometimes we need to remember to love with everything you have! Someone might need you, more than you know. You could be the only light they have. Maybe we don’t see it, but to them it matters!
Love is everything. When everything else gets too much love is the power which can get you through anything!
Be the sunlight in someone’s life. You may not know what they are going through, just be there in the best way you can. Love is needed it can heal when nothing can. It’s the best thing you can give someone!
We all want to be loved the way we are,even the things we would like to change about ourselves. But if we hide the things we don’t like about ourselves. What if we didn’t hide the things we don’t like about ourselves,, would you be able to do it? Love is meant to be true, love the other person whole heartly but I don’t think that happens much nowadays. We feel as if we can’t be different because no one will love us with our difference. So what! Just be you!
How was everyone’s Holliday? Mine was amazing I was with my family in Holland! I just got home last night, so I am getting back to things here and I have to try to get over the time difference (jed lag) it can be hard to get back on track and knowing where I am. But my time with my brother was amazing, we got to see a lot of Holland and I enjoyed the time! It was raining for the most part, but we still got around: one experience we had that we all thought was a little surprising: we took the train to the big town for a day and my brother and dad had to left my chair on the train, on the way home we saw that they had a ramp out for someone else to use, so we thought I would be able to use it but no we had to call a head to use it, we were all surprised that they couldn’t let me use it for a couple minutes then we guessed that it was because of other people who didn’t need it, were using it. So they had to do something to make it harder for anyone to use it, which is fine but it makes it harder for those who really needs it. My brother lives in a small town so we could go for long walks which I loved!
I am going to Holland tomorrow for two weeks I’m over the moon about seeing my brother and family! I am getting family for the holidays what could be better! As I am getting older I am happy to get loved ones as a gift! I think we get older we realize that people are far more important than anything you could buy, family and friends are everything to me!! Yes I do want to get things but I love my family and friends more than anything in the world! My family is all over the world and, which can make Christmas hard for me, I have friends who are like family to me!
Happy holidays to all you! I will be back writing in January!
My services are: contact thought email,a month worth of emails back and forth for $20. I sometimes need more time to write back.. I hope to have a network of support for anyone who is different from the so called normal people think you should be to fit in. We are all different, all needed! So what if you are disabled or you have depression, a mental health problem you amazing loved! The difference you have is what makes you needed! I am a mentor who knows what it’s like to feel lonely just because I am different. I understand it’s hard to have explain why you don’t act normal, what disability you have half the time you meet someone new. I will talk to you and try to understand you and than come up with something to help you deal with your differences!
Most people think of being rich is having a lot of money, it’s so not! It is Love and it is giving more than you get! I have a disability I can’t have a normal job but I’m able to help people and I know I have Love, so I am rich!!! I can do something meaningful with what I have! Baby sitting to helping friends who needed someone to listen and help them when on one else would,,, my life is rich with love!
Life can change in a second, take everything it comes but still dream for more!! Never stop. You may be in a place where you think you can not get out of: but with the right support and love you can overcome anything!
These days I am whing I had more tiwouldme to get everything done and have lots of time to read! But I’m not making great Schedule choices, really reading is taking over my time! I am trying to take an online class, while I’m using my tablet my computer keyboard is a special kind while I can’t get a new one but it is the only kind I’m able to use. what now? You might be asking,,. Since I write to keep busy and I am working on starting my business: I need twouldo be able to write, it’s important to me. I would love to have a normal job but I can’t do it. So I am trying to start my own business, where I can be able to help others! It has been my dream to be a mentor, because of my disability my speech is something you would have to get used to it.. So I have come up with this idea that I can mentor through writing. All that to say I can use my phone and my tablet through my joystick on my wheelchair, it is amazing. Now I just have to get used to my new setup! I am excited but it’s going to take me time!
Thinking about the differences we have: nomatter if you are able or not, we still have needs that are different from everyone else! I think that is what makes us special as well as you are needed! You are here for a reason!! As I wrote yesterday my CP is a little different than most others and I know it is what makes me me! You can walk and talk so you don’t need the kind of help as someone who has a disability. But I’m sure you can have some needs that makes you special! That is what makes the world so beautiful!! Having that special need is awesome! I would like to see more people see that is amazing! We are different in all we need, so why do we think we need to hide what makes us special?
I have my tablet back, so I want to see if I can write better and faster with it. Trying something new can take time, especially if you have a different kind of disability which mine is uncommon! Sometimes I like but I don’t; because new things for the disabilited people, isn’t always easy for me to use.. I have had this tablet just about all year, I have not used it much because some of the things I need to use it with was not working in the way I needed it to, but I am trying it again! I think I like it!
“There will always be a reason why you meet people. Either you need them to change your life or you’re the one that will change theirs.” — Angel Flonis Harefa’’ I believe this quote it true, each person we meat there is a reason maybe we need them or they need us! We may not ever know the reason but everyone we do there’s a reason. A friendship or any relationship is a gift that could make our lives better.
“Because of your smile, you make life more beautiful. Thich Nhat Hanh” Someone, somewhere needs to hear this! Our lives are full but of the things that bring us down and we start to think if we can make a difference or even worst loved. May be you are going through something that you are not ready to talk about it, you are feeling alone like no one will understand your feelings. That makes you want to hid behind the smile like everything is ok, but really just be the you everyone loves because really you are loved, and your smile is needed! That is not said enough!
What is the best thing you can give someone? When it really matters; if you know they are going through the hardest time and wandering if it could get better. Giving them your time they could make all the difference.
I read this and loved it! I know how just knowing you are loved can help in ways you can only Imagine. “deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage. Lao Tzu”. Knowing that you have somebody any time of day just makes everything easier.
‘’Acceptance is the road to all change. If resisting has failed and frustrated you, try to accept what is. As hard as it is to believe, acceptance can open different opportunities for change than resistance. Struggling can sometimes swallow us even deeper into the quicksand of our problems. Difficult problems take time to resolve. The more frantically you pick at knots, the more entangled they can become. To untangle yourself try relaxing. Gently and patiently work with your difficulties and in time you will be freed from what now seems impossible. You are being called to heal yourself, not to agonize over your mistakes. Quit overthinking; this is what surrendering really means. Don’t focus on your problems and don’t obsess about “fixing” things. Avoid forcing “positive thinking.” These thoughts can be psychological irritants. Just leave yourself alone! When you pick at things, they never heal. Simply relax and give yourself some time.— Bryant McGill’’ Change is necessary but it can also be hard. How do you cope with changes in your life? Or what helps you? We sometimes think that asking for help, someone to be with you; many make others think you weak but really we all need help sometimes! Love is the most important thing we can give someone!
February is my favorite mouth because it’s all about love which is my word. The best feeling, the most important thing that we can give and get! And maybe even hard to give sometimes but so wroth it! It’s the one reason I do this; helping others. I have had a few hard things had this week and I kind of took it all harder than I normally would have, it just means for a little while I have to do things differently. At first I was not happy or acting like I would; I wanted it fixed right then, just as if I couldn’t life without that one thing but now as I look at the way I acted I feel so selfish! I have otter ways in which I can talk to others, I didn’t need to act that way; mostly it was because I didn’t think it send love though text to people who I always am there for. I wasn’t thinking about the other things that can help me do that! Yes it makes my life easier but really I can do without for a few days there are more important things I cannot live without like giving love to others.
When you can’t help someone you love with all your heart is can be the hardcore things. But you know just loving them is what they need more than anything else. Its still makes you want to do more but really love fixes everything.
Think about what you can do daily to keep yourself happy? Its music! I have to have music on whatever I do. Its first thing to get my day going, there some things that we do daily that makes life easier for me its music! I love hearing a song that remains me of someone or may me want to dance around like crazy because no one is watching! What is your one thing that gets you happy? Do you write in a journal that also can help some.
Each day do you wake up joyfully? It’s not always easy but I like to think I do. I know I don’t; but being happy is not about having everything you want I think. I think happiness comes from love! Knowing that you have people in your life that do not care when you call them or how you look, act or anything else about you. They love and care for you; that is what I think happiness is. It is not everything else that we think of when want to be happy, it’s looking inside yourself and knowing that you are loved for you! What brings you joy? What could you do if you don’t see joy daily? Because joy is everywhere you just have to see it in the little things and know how you are loved!
What makes you happy? Do you have a dream that you don’t think can come true? I can tell you stop putting yourself down! Its hard not to; because others judge you not on what you can do but your differences. Learning to be ok with yourself sometimes, but it is the best way to make yourself happy.
Over 16million people in the US have depression, which that number could be more; because there are many people who don’t want to say they have depression. Why? I wonder why could someone not tell anybody; oh yeah I know because people judge and think that you are making up illness, just to get love! What the hell! I’m still learning about depression, because I know how it seen. Hid it not going to help the person who deals with it, no it’s the other way I think, having someone who can listen and maybe give their ideas that could make a difference in their life or even just to a friend. That is my goal for this business is to be a support when you need to be heard a mentor. If you are interested you can email me or if you are on facebook me.
I am so excited today I got my business signed up with the state of Colorado it’s a small step to my dream! I am not ready for business just yet but I will be soon! I want to tell you all; if you have felt different or like an outcast don’t let them tell you, you cannot do something. You are you for a reason; you’re beautiful/needed to make a difference in some way!
The best time of the year; thanksgiving and Christmas the time to be with loved ones and give! But not just things but also love and to give back. It’s the best time right? For most yes, but for me it’s just a little harder not because I don’t like Christmas. My family is so far away I don’t get to spend time with them and feel too. But as I start getting ready for the holidays its not that bad. I am actually excited for the New Year and making new goals for myself! As we all try to keep to the goals but somehow things get in the way or we think we can’t do it. To better our lives we should work on goals and help each other with them. My goal for the New Year is to get my business going. I think I can do it; there is still a lot to learn. But I want this bad enough that I know I won’t give up!
I would like to try something, I want to offer to a mentor to my follows. Just so I can start building my experience I really want to be able to help others, I also have hard times and I know what it’s like to be lonely or miss-understood. Thank you
Today I am trying to write on my new tablet, it’s exciting but I am still trying to learn how it works.. I got it to help me with my writing and also it’s helps me talk if I need! Technology has helped me so much to do more independently!! I am so thankful that I am able to do what I love doing, which is helping people! I don’t feel as disabled when I have the opportunity to work and help others!
Self-love is most important but sometimes it’s the hardest to do. We all think we could be better, different but we don’t have to. The way life is we think being different isn’t well taken by others. But I think it’s awesome; who why would you want to be normal? I know I don’t want to be normal. But if someone who has a differences and because of it; they have been made fun of or out cased they would not think as I do.
“Seeking love keeps you from the awareness that you already have it — that you are it.”
— Byron Katie’’
“Know thyself. Accept thyself. Love thyself. No matter what you have done, where you have been, know, accept, and love who you are.”
— Iyanla Vanzant. Do you accept, love yourself, do you know yourself? Life can be hard even if you have everything going right. Sometimes we don’t like who we are just because life wants us to think that if we have a difference it’s not ok but guess we all have some kind of difference so it should not be a big deal. But there are people who are hurting because the public makes us feel that different is not good but it is. Love who you are.
I like this quote because we all get this feeling sometimes where; when we have something we want do maybe in our lifes or even something else. You think that you can’t do it. Just keep trying!
“Courage doesn’t always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, ‘I will try again tomorrow.’” ~ Mary Anne Radmacher”
“Somebody needs what you have to give. It may not be your money; it may be your time. It may be your listening ear. It may be your arms to encourage. It may be your smile to uplift. Who knows? Maybe just like that little baby, putting your arm around somebody and letting him or her know that you care can help begin to heal that person’s heart. Maybe you can give a rescuing hug.”
— Joel Osteen. I love this so much. We don’t recognize how much love is needed to heal. You can say you are happy but love makes it all worth it
“Real love is opening your heart to the unlovable. Real gratitude is giving thanks when things aren’t perfect. Real generosity is sharing when you have very little. Real courage makes the ‘impossible’ — possible, with real faith.” — Bryant McGill
I think I understand how love is needed, how much love can change lifes! If you are in a low time in life and you know you have somebody who you can talk to at anytime, knowing that helps just they would do anything for you. Its hard to find people who will do that. Love is not thinking about what others think it’s how you feel. Sometimes I wish there were more ways to explain how much I love, I want them to understand how much I love them, but I don’t think I can!
“There will always be a reason why you meet people. Either you need them to change your life or you’re the one that will need to change theirs.” — Angel Harefa
I think there is always a reason why you meet the people who are in your life. You may not know it but there is a reason always.
My CP can be so tight and in doing excise or anything else can be so hard, but I keep going yesterday was an tighter day. I had to go to project walk and nominally it helps. But not yesterday, I have so much that I’m excited for that it makes me tighter then normal. CP is not the same every day well least mine isn’t, that is what is the hard part of my cerebral palsy. But it’s what I have to deal with to keep moving forward, all that to say there are many people who have it hard, and may not think they could be supported but you are; your journey may be hard but you are not alone! Don’t hide you!
Your heart is not broken. Hearts don’t break. What you are feeling is growing pains. Your heart is expanding in wisdom, compassion, and strength, so one day, you can love even more.” — Bryant McGill
Look around do you see people hurting?
People waiting to be loved the way they are.
But they hide because nowadays
people think to be different is bad
it’s not, it is what makes us all unique and special.
Being different is what life is about!
“Stop comparing yourself with other people. You are an original.” -Joyce Meyer
Why do we like to compare ourselves to others all the time? We are all different so what its awesome the person that you are there is only one amazing you! Why hide who you are when you are amazing. You have some differences that you hide because you are afraid others might not like, that just means that they aren’t good enough have you because you are AMAZING!
“What are you feeling blessed for today?” — Simple Reminder. Easy Love. Love always! !
“The greatest gift you can ever give to others is unconditional love and acceptance.” — Brian Tracy. I believe in this people are the best gift you get friendships that are always accepting of who you are. It’s not always easy to feel accepted or making new friends; when you are different or have a disability as the world sees difference! That is disability is, a difference and everyone is different!