My cp hurts/hard day

My CP can be so tight and in doing excise or anything else can be so hard, but I keep going yesterday was an tighter day.   I had to go to project walk and nominally it helps.   But not yesterday,  I have so much that I’m excited for that it makes me tighter then normal.  CP is not the same every day well least mine isn’t,  that is what is the hard part of my cerebral palsy.  But it’s what I have to deal with to keep moving forward, all that to say there are many people who have it hard, and may not think they could be supported but you are; your journey may be hard but you are not alone!   Don’t hide you!

Have you ever had a day where;  you wish you could be there more for someone?   That is where my heart is lately, and its not easy to remember that letting them know you are there for them no-matter what and how much much they mean to you,  every time you can;  that may be the only thing you can give them even if it was different;  giving love can help than anything else.   Life does not always give love,  sometimes it is the feeling people don’t always have.

What gives you the most joy?   For me, it’s helping others and loving others a little more than I should but it makes me so happy to know I can help someone.   I think now days we don’t love like we should;  we don’t like who we are so,  we hide ourselves thinking that it is better.   Not letting anyone in,  but when we are lonely or hurting.   We should let people look at us the way we are!

“Stop comparing yourself with other people. You are an original.” -Joyce Meyer
Why do we like to compare ourselves to others all the time?  We are all different so what its awesome the person that you are there is only one amazing you! Why hide who you are when you are amazing.  You have some differences that you hide because you are afraid others might not like, that just means that they aren’t good enough have you because you are AMAZING!

Time changes almost everything except love!   Life without it is nothing.   I think it’s what helps us want to get up each day;  it helps during the dark times in life!   It is the sun when we need it most.   Knowing you are loved during the lowest times is really what helps everything came right, it might sound crazy but it really is that one thing that helps!

I am so thankful for friendships I know I write about friendships a lot but to me it’s the best gift you can get.   My birthday is coming up and I’ve been asked what I want and I don’t want anything.   People are my favorite gift.  I don’t want things just to say you gave me something,  love, family and friendships is what is important to me!

“The greatest gift you can ever give to others is unconditional love and acceptance.” — Brian Tracy.  I believe in this people are the best gift you get friendships that are always accepting of who you are.  It’s not always easy to feel accepted or making new friends;  when you are different or have a disability as the world sees difference!   That is  disability is,  a difference and everyone is different!

You are helping someone right now even if you don’t think so.   It might be thought your outlook, maybe textting someone just to let them know that they are loved may be your words are what keeps them going even if you think it’s not enough it is!   Always do what your heart tells you,  when it comes to supporting someone;  you can never go wrong if you know you can help do it.  There are so many people who are hurting or lonely and don’t  feel loved.  You can just send a simple text not knowing how it would help someone.   Giving to others in the best gift you can give,  and its needed more than anything else!    Just Give and Love!

These last few days I been wishing a friendship would come back.   I know somehow it’s still apart from me but there are days when I wish my heart felt a little different but I don’t,  I do;  I know I can always think about it and it makes me happy and I know we always have that.   All that to say people are my best gifts and this week I’m thankful for amazingly friendships.

Why can’t we just do what our hearts is telling us to do?   It’s a question I ask myself when I listen to what my heart is telling me that I could do;  but I don’t think I can!   Or I don’t want to do it because people might think weird.   When I don’t care how people see me,  I should just do it, and see where the journey go on leads me to;  but no it is not that easy….  I want to love others so much to where I make them uncomfortable or think I’m crazy; when I should not let  others tell how to love.  But I don’t really understand how often we say I love you but we don’t really mean it, I do maybe too much but I am good with it.   Because there is not enough of real love;  it is so needed!

Dear you!

I have been following some different life coaches on facebook.  I’m wanting to become a life coach;  I think it would be awesome not because I want the title behind my name but I think it would help in my goal of having my own business or on line community,  be for now I just lean from other life coaches the idea of going back to school lol; does not sound fun!  But anyway these a life coach who does a ”dear you”, I love it.   I think I’m going to start doing it, let’s see how it goes!
Dear you,   I can see your difficulties , difference I understand hiding them and be so called nominal would be easier,  to make friends,  to become independent,  but why be nominal and do the same thing as everyone else!   You are unique that is awesome you don’t need to be normal.   You are so loved,  needed.   Love yourself more than anything!

This week I am thankful for love!  Not only love I have;  but also I love making others feel important!  It is what keeps me happy, it’s what makes me me.   My daily life I need help with everything physical it’s the best feeling to give to my loved ones;  I might love too much but it is me!  “Real love is opening your heart to the unlovable. Real gratitude is giving thanks when things aren’t perfect. Real generosity is sharing when you have very little. Real courage makes the ‘impossible’ — possible, with real faith.” — Bryant McGill

Life is amazing  as I think about what I’ve decided to do bloging as inspire, support and love others through writing; when the funny thing is I can’t spell that well. But I love writing and doing it my childhood wish is actually coming true!  I love it!   I was in a place,  at the beginning of this year where the bad thoughts was not helping, in to thinking that I couldn’t do this.  But it was not me.  We all going through times where the bad thoughts takes over but at some point you get out of it and start moving forward.  Depression has been a topic I feel like I could support.   I didn’t go to school for it,  but it’s been in my heart to others.   Depression among other disability have always interested me. For depression is something people are afraid of, why.  It’s different disability but it is a disability! I know a disability means you need to help and you can’t help who you are because of that differences you can not help it!  All that to say I want to bring more awareness to all kinds of disabilities!

This weeks gratefulness is to something that to most it must not be something to give thanks for, but for me it is. It pictures and memories that remained with you always! Each day I get excited to look facebook and look at the memories for that day a year ago on a few years back! It’s a great way to remember people who may not talk to as much but the memories helps to know that time will be yours to think back to!

”No one wants to be discriminated against. No matter who you are, you have the same rights to life and equality as everyone else. This is the purpose behind the 2010 ADA Standards for Accessible Design. These standards as issued by the Department of Justice and the Department of Transportation ensure that Americans with disabilities have the same rights of access to public buildings as every other citizen of the United States.”(http://accessadvocates.com/why-the-2010-ada-standards-for-accessible-design-mean-equal-rights-for-you.)

Think about this;  as if someone discriminated against when there is nothing wrong with you,  you are able to do everything but someone doesn’t like something about you.   That what someone with a disability feels like what we get discriminated just because we are different.   We are all different the only difference between someone with a special need and the able-bodied is,  year not see their disability.

“Nothing is more important than empathy for another human being’s suffering. Nothing. Not a career, not wealth, not intelligence, certainly not status. We have to feel for one another if we’re going to survive with dignity.”
— Audrey Hepburn

This is so true, I love this.   Sometimes we don’t help people because first we may not know how to help or we feel afraid that they may not understand how much we care! Do it anyway!

This week I’m thankful for the things that made me smile;  like the scenes changing into summer, everything seems new.  The sun shining on everything making things look happy and healthy like life is starting new again,  in a way it is.   I love sitting outside thinking about everything I have.

Disabled parking

what goes through your mind when you’re out and you see a parking spot for wheelchairs?  Do you take it?   Thinking you just have to run in for quick minute no one will notice.   Like the person with a wheelchair won’t need in the time you are in the store; you may have that thought that wheelchair uses can wait or just park somewhere else.   But the thing is when you have an accession van, or just a wheelchair; you are going to need the extra room to get out.those parking spots have a reason for being wider; even helping someone to get out of a car you are going to need the room.   It’s not there for anyone or just for a quick stop!
Before I got my accessible van,  I would need to have someone put my chair together than get me out and in the chair, my mom and I had a car park too close to the car, my mom thought we had enough room to get me in but as we tried; mom and I ended up on the ground between the two cars because there wasn’t enough room for me to get in.

This article tells more about why the disabled parking shouldn’t be a just quick run in opposition.

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Each day I want to make someone smile, not because I want anything in return its just me.  There are too many people who are hurting and have no one for support.   Its so easy to let someone feel loved,  special and to me it is the best gift!   I know what is it like to feel like you don’t fit in.   Its not fun.  It’s hard to know how to be a support for someone,  but if you can let them know you are there for them,  you might not know it but just that could be the one thing they need to get through whatever they are going through.

I think this is so true, love is everything it is everywhere.  I know love can do so much for someone especially if they feel alone or if they are going through a hard time.

”Let truth, beauty and love be your guide. Truth is found in the exaltation and protection of beauty. Beauty is like a pristine peak on the landscape of life; yet un-savaged by man’s gruesome defilements. Simple truth is ever-awaiting under the patina of common falsehoods. And how can you know something as subjective as truth? You can know something is a lie when it has no love in it. Hence, truth is the spirit of all that is good and worthy through loving. Love has perfect eyes for beauty. Love can see the limitless beauty within self and within others. Love is open to all possibility. Every great master knew love as their only master. Love exalts because it is exalted. When you become love you become divine because love is divine. The self-realized spirit is merely a spirit emancipated from fear, judgement and knowing. When you feel lost turn towards love. Become a seeker of beauty in all things. Each moment has an unrealized dimension of beauty that only your perspective can liberate. When we become seekers of truth and beauty, we are creating truth and beauty. Your perspectives change your realities. Your vision determines your destination.

— Bryant McGill”

 

It is easy to know your purpose in life because you choose your purpose in life. A purpose does not just happen; it is cultivated. A purpose does not come as a grand, all-encompassing and final solution or supreme-understanding. A purpose is more like a positive daily-grind, with gratitude and a smile. A purpose is nothing fancy and is not reserved for spiritual teachers, so-called geniuses or impassioned artistes. There is nothing more practical, down to earth and easily accessible as a purpose. You will find your purpose revealed in every single action, once you realize that — you — are your purpose. Your life is your purpose. We don’t “get” a purpose. We are witnesses to the unfolding of our purpose as our purpose is revealed to us daily by how we live life. The people who seem to know their purpose are sometimes just more present in their own choices and more focused with their gifts; gifts all of us have — yes, even you. But your purpose isn’t to merely craft and showcase your gifts. Your purpose is deeper than the busy-work of talent. Your purpose is with you at every moment. Your purpose is simply what you do each day. Your purpose is what you are experiencing in the living of your life. Your purpose is a great unfolding; a distinctive honor granted to all life — highest among those honors is the gift of freedom of thought and choice. The purpose of your life is the purpose you bring to it, choice by choice, and recognition by recognition. If you don’t know your gifts, your gifts and purpose know you — and if you are open, you will not have to find them, because they will find you.— Bryant McGill

It’s hard to find out what is your purpose in life is. For me, it was always a feeling that I would help others.  I love being able to be there for a loved one or support someone who is going through a hard time.   I don’t know why but I have known I could make a difference in people’s lives.

I was in South Africa for the passed few weeks, seeing family and old friends.   I went for my brother’s wedding and what a amazing wedding it was!  It was so special to have my close family together in the same room, even if it was just for a few hours!   It was the best part of the 3 weeks!   A few hours to feel everyone together was so spectacular,  I know we all have own lives so that that day will always be special.   I saw some old places I used to go to.   My school which was awesome.   I loved it all.   I was kind of thinking about if I could live there and still have same independence i have here but I couldn’t,  it’s not safe I  couldn’t be on my  own.   I hate leaving but my life is here.

Hi my amazing friends. Hope you are well. I wanted to tell you guys that I won’t be able to write for a few weeks. I am going home to South Africa and I get some time with all my family; I feel a child on Christmas morning! This trip is huge for me I have no had my whole family together in one room in years so you can understand that feeling! Yes, I have a great family here and I love that my close friends have become my family and I could not be more lucky enough to have friends who think of me as their family I love them more than I could say! But it’s a different feeling going home. And I can not tell you how happy I am! Remember love is everywhere.

“Somebody needs what you have to give. It may not be your money; it may be your time. It may be your listening ear. It may be your arms to encourage. It may be your smile to uplift. Who knows? Maybe just like that little baby, putting your arm around somebody and letting him or her know that you care can help begin to heal that person’s heart. Maybe you can give a rescuing hug.”— Joel Osteen in “Somebody needs what you have to give

Love this quote,  its so TRUE.  Love can be a light to someone who is going through a hard time more than you may realize!  Maybe you are the only friend they have or by you be a support they don’t feel so alone!   Love that we give may mean more to them than we could never know!

The greatest gift

A family is a given gift but some are different from others meaning in a way that you can decide that friendship is more than just a friend.   Your family is those who take you no matter who you are,  they can’t change you.   They are what help grow into your own person.   Yours does it if you have a good relationship or how much you see each other,  they are yours!   You move around the world,  missing them but start to learn that you can have a family outside of your own family and it does not mean that your family doesn’t matter because they should always be first in your world.   But having friendships who became like family,  means that they would do anything for,  they are there.   You don’t have to be something you are not,  that kind of friendship is the greatest gift besides from your true family.

How many times a day,  does someone tell you that they love you?   Do you feel loved?   We don’t think about how much love can make life better, or even just knowing that someone is there for you no matter what time.  We all have hard times,  hurting or feel as if we are alone.  We need to feel loved so much,  I think that is more than ever.  Look around and see how different our lives are now;  love is not at the top as it should be.   If you are depressed or goes through something;  it seems like you get pushed away like no one cares when you should feel loved and that you are cared for.   Its like we are too busy trying to have a good job,  enough money to make us happier,  but somehow the thing which could really make us happy we have forgotten that it is all we need that is love.

“Make a gift of your life and lift all mankind by being kind, considerate, forgiving, and compassionate at all times, in all places, and under all conditions, with everyone as well as yourself. This is the greatest gift anyone can give.”— David Hawkins
in “Lift all mankind by being kind

We forget that the best gift of all;  is the relationships we have.   People who in our lifes.  We think a gift is something we buy,  but the best gift we can get is each!   Each relationship we have has something different that only you and that person share which makes it special it’s yours,  nothing else is the same as that one relationship with that person!   We could have everything in life the right job,  a huge home, and money but that is not what makes us truly happy it is the people who make us feel like we mean something to their world!

Life changes all the time but a TRUE friendship does not!

I have always said that family, love are two things that never change.  If they do then it was not meant to be or maybe it has changed but if the friendship matters the way you feel never will!   You may not talk or have seen a family member or a friend in some time, and I know that can be hard to feel like they still love you.   But I realized that shouldn’t matter.   When you really need them that is what matters!  I have talking to old friend who I met in high school we met on one of my walks with my dog Skye I was trying to get back on the sidewalk and I started watching kids , it was the first time I got to babysit!  She was home but doing house work but I could keep them busy and she would have to do her stuff I really loved the opportunity to have a job,  then she started helping me with homework and other things.   It was great to have some where to go after school,  we became friends which I loved the two kids were so cute!  We did a lot together;  then they had to move and somehow we didn’t talk as much but she came back for my high school graduation which meant so much to me.   But then we got busy with life and didn’t talk forever,  but somehow a few mouths ago we started talking and it’s like nothing ever happened;  our friendship is the same awesome I feel closer to her now actually.   But all that to say when any kind of relationship is meant to be,  it will always be there!  I am so happy that we are close again!

Going for a walk, when you are disabled

Last Thursday it was a great sunny day outside so I decided to go for a walk with my dog Simba.  I had just got a new phone holder for my wheelchair,  I wasn’t used to it yet and it didn’t have the sticky stuff that I use on everything I use because of my movements it helps if stuff does not move.   But my mom and I thought with the kind of holder it is I would be fine.   So I started on my walk with Simba, I went a longer way because I was enjoying being outside;  my foot pad had dropped off my chair I was trying to pick it up myself because there was not one around and when trying I dropped my phone.   I saw a car drive by I got them to stop and they came over to help,  now I was moving a lot and they tried to hand me my phone but I couldn’t hold on to it,  so they thought I couldn’t have a phone or be out on my own.  So they started texting the first person in my message box I had no idea that they had texted my friend who is in an another state, they got her freaked out that something happened to me.   Then they called my mom and said they found me that was all oh and where to come,  the other lady called 911!  While I am saying I could walk home (I do this all the time) they had my phone which has a talker app I use if I need to have people understand what I am saying but I couldn’t,  they could understand me some;  but when I could go on.  They said they knew I could get home but they would not let me go like a was a chance that couldn’t be on their own,  so just as I could see my mom walking towards me the fire truck came I started crying thinking they would take me away,  like my mom couldn’t take care of me.   Don’t know why I thought that but I did!  So the firemen saw my mom and I and that I wasn’t hurt,  he said that the ladies made this bigger than it needed to be.

I think the didn’t know anything about disabilities and I was moving so much,  thinking that I was hurt but if they knew what I was saying they shouldn’t have called the firefighters just asked me what I needed.

“To make a difference in someone’s world, you don’t have to be amazing, rich, talented beautiful, or perfect. You just have to be you and care.”— Rebecca Fox
in “Make a difference in someone’s world

I love this saying because I am always trying to find ways to be there for others.   Not realizing that I don’t need to do something big.  Don’t have to get them gives just so they know you are there for this, you can message, call just let them know how much they mean to you. Helping someone who you love is not hard at all.

By being beautiful and kind you are given favored status and opportunity in life. Love can take you from any depth, and place you on the highest mountain. Choosing beauty and love does not mean being uninformed or weak; it means you clearly see the ugliness, but choose love anyway. Beauty is so simple, and it is all around you if you look. Beauty is reaching for you if you will hold out your hand in good faith. A blessed life will not come and force you to receive its blessings; receivership is a handshake requiring your earnest reach. Spirituality is very much about putting yourself in proper order. Strive to become a beautiful person. Live with kindness, integrity, and care. Comport yourself with grace under pressure. Don’t hurt people! Be an asset in the lives of others. Put people before things and live from your heart. Be intelligent but know it is better to be kind than smart. Be a peacemaker who values peace and takes peace everywhere you go. Learn to understand your energy and how you create with your energy. Have among your priorities the characteristics of politeness, compassion, and patience. Avoid making rash assumptions. Be a believer in true love. Have faith in people. Seek deep communication with others and with yourself. Laugh and make the best of every situation and understand that life is not perfect.
— Bryant McGill

”Heart beats are the most selfish in the world….They beat in our body but always dance to the tune of someone else.. It is our heart but it beats and belonges to someone else when we Love…:D CG”

I think if you feel loved you can dance like nobody is watching,  like you have everything!   Love is everything!

Disabled employment; not easy

I have a disability,  I need to be on med-aid to help pay for the help I need daily and my wheelchair and others things I need.   But I also want to have a job I am not one to stay home and think that became I’m disabled I don’t need to work.   When you are on mad-aid you can’t work a lot or you’ll stop getting the benefits.  So how could you work when you know the things that help you live a normal life might not be there if you get a job and start bringing in money;  I think that they (med-aid) should help us want to work;  shouldn’t let think we can’t work.   Yes if we can pay for all we need out of our money than it would be different.   But when people with disabilities have the thought that you shouldn’t work because of losing benefits,  you wouldn’t want to get a job but if your benefit group were helping you to get to where you don’t need them it would better than making us more disabled.