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Being happy with your difference
Is not easy to do at times
But you are who you are
Be great full for you have
Because there are people
Worse off than you!

Ok everyone 💟 I have been talking about disability proud month, I used to see the point of it but now as I learn about the difference between people. I see we all have a difference that is a disability in my eyes. Yes I can’t walk, I don’t talk well, I need help with everything I do. But if you look around, we are different from each other, someone might be depressed and they don’t want to tell others. Someone else might just need someone to be there for them..  Yes  people who are disabled need more help but we are not that different from the next person…

Life can change, it will change how you think. You may have to move around, you may get to start over in a different country. Life may give you sickness and many others things that will happen in life. But the two things you can always count on are family and true friends who don’t care where you live, they will come. True friends will always find ways to be there for each other.

Beauty is not the way you look!
It’s how you act!
What you do for others!
Be open to others!
Love like nobody sees!

HOPE: is knowing that everything is going to be okay.
FAITH: is believing in something bigger.
LAUGHING: is good medicine.
EQUALITY: is seeing everyone for who they are.
LOVE: never ends!

Mental health care can be hard to handle especially when they don’t help. But even if you are disabled it’s not easy! Even if you are, so called normal life is not easy. So why do we have to pick on each other like it’s their own fault for the way they are.  We don’t have to push anyone to the side just because people don’t look and act like you. We are all different for a reason!

You are unique
You have overcome so much
Your difference is needed
Don’t listen to others
BE Yourself!

We all have a special need, but why is it that we all try to be normal! We need to  love the way we are not,, act differently because someone is different so what?

I have CP, but I don’t write on the disability act when I was in the US. We all are different nad the no such thing as normal. Why do we keep to the things that keep us apart when we are all different and we all have different needs. It is not about getting what our group of people should have, but how we can help everyone together. Not because it’s bad, but it doesn’t bring let together then we fight for the things that starts wars.  Just help each other and don’t be so into the kind of stigma that you feel like you have to do something for yourself if it’s not what makes you happy. Do Something that means you can be happy!

I have been thinking about all these things we have that divide us just because we look or act differently. Then we turn it into movement and focus everything into that , thinking that it would help but it doesn’t make it worse. Yes we need to stand up for ourselves, but all these movements don’t really do good. We need to come together and see what is different between us is also the same between us.

There are sigma’s for everyone that is different! If you are disabled, if you’re black, if you have mental health issues. But why, when we are all different, we have different needs.  These sigmas just make things worst because that’s all we want to get out of the world. Than we don’t mix or anything work on something that could help, it’s just has to be about the sigma that we are under. We should be able forget our difference and just help everyone! 💚

Days are unknown,
Days can bring sadness,
But also happiness,
It can be hold hope
New adventures that could help grow
But mostly it is exciting !

What is life without people who you can count on? Do we all want that? What if you have a mental illness? You have to hide how much you are hurting, just because others don’t see or understand that your mind is designed differently. I know I’m not a psychiatrist or anything like that, but everytime I hear a story of someone talking about their mental illness and then having people walk out of their life because of something they can’t help or they feel a different way drives me crazy. I am going to find a way to break down that stigma.

These days suicide is high, we see people who have perfect boobies that is what should look like right? No wrong! We are just the way we are for a reason! As we are looking though Facebook or the news we don’t see how different people are; or if they have a disability. So we get picked on, because we are different or you are dealing with depression not to be lonely we hide it and then we feel worst and it could lead to suicide. Let it out just be you because there is no one like you!

Every person in the world has some kind of special need. You could even call it a disability depending how you view disabilities. We all need help, otherwise why are there so many people in the world who are different? In school and life, society teaches us to hide our differences and be the same to fit in. Most people will hide their differences to make friends. The second somebody knows you have a difference, they tend to see you as somebody who is not okay. It doesn’t matter if you are healthy and happy. I’m sure everyone needs company. To me, everybody needs to be themselves and show who they really are. It shouldn’t matter if you are disabled or if you have any kind of health issues. We all need to be able to tell people what we feel and have the confidence to be ourselves and be okay. Everyone is different for a reason. We need to be different to help each other see different perspectives. Again I ask you, why are we so worried about fitting in? Differences are needed.

You are different. You are hurting and no-one knows how to help! Because you don’t want tell anyone that you have a mental illness. Because it could change the way people see you. But just remember you are important and needed. There is only one person like you! Let people see the you that has been hiding trying to fit in, when you were born to stand out!

Love can mean different things to different people. I know for myself that I can love hard to where it can be overwhelming or seem a different way than I want perceived. Love can be very hard to feel sometimes, but sometimes it’s needed more than anything else. We also have, in a way, used the word too much. This can make it less meaningful. There are people that don’t love themselves, so they don’t see why somebody would love them. I love like crazy, and I’m not going to stop. However, I’m going to show it differently.

I am love!

I am disabled, I am going to inspire others!

I will change the way the world views mental illnesses and disabilities!

I am different, I can make a difference!!

Love you are words that we don’t say to offend, as if we are scared to say how we truly feel. When we are down and feeling lonely, we need to hear that the most! We need to be needed, supported and loved! Now days it’s more important than ever, because we are not able to be with our loved ones. So just say, I love you like it’s going out of style!

Hey everyone. I’m sorry I haven’t been writing a lot this year. I think I have lost my inspiration or maybe because this year has been so hard for all of us because of the virus. I just have not had that much inspiration. But this year has been amazing at the same time as being very hard. As you know, I have a disability that I can’t do anything physical, but I can say now that I have climbed the tallest mountain in Colorado, and now I moved into my own house, I’m trying to make it on my own without my family here to help everyday. I am grateful that I have a great family who built the place for me, but I also know that it’s time for me to be my own person. This year has also been hard because we can’t see people we love or go anywhere. It’s kind of weird. I can’t remember a year that I haven’t gone out of Colorado.

Mental illness and having a disability are along the same line. They’re both not easy to deal with, and people often don’t understand what it is like to have a difference. I have been thinking about how I could focus on one subject, mental illness or disability; I couldn’t pick just one for my business. They are both very misunderstood. Because I have a disability that makes me move crazy and talk funny, I have to work harder to make friends. I don’t actually know what it’s like to have a mental illness, but I know as soon as someone talks about having a mental illness, people run away. People also think it’s made up because it’s not visible. I don’t believe any of that. I want to find a way to start a movement to change the way people view mental illness. I know there have been different movements to change the stigma for women and people with disabilities. Why or how can we start a movement for mental illness?

The mind is like a book
With lots of different stores,
That makes up us.
We all have things that makes us happy
But for some love could be what is needed most to help, when they are depressed.
Love and understanding is what needed!  
9/19/20

Mental illness can be hard to deal with, but people do.  As someone who knows some people who dispersion I want to learn everything I can about mental health.  So I have been reading a lot about it, and it made me realize how much everyone could still understand about mental health.. is it worth it and needed! I am going to change the way we look at it and help those who hid their mental illness away just because people don’t understand.

 

Have you ever loved someone that the more you try to tell thecan\’t find the right word to describe how much you love them! Each time it gets harder.. But somehowm it’s like you can’t find the right word to describe how much you love them! Each time it gets harder.. But somehow you know they understand how you feel. So that is what you need to trust and stop over thinking of ways to show them,, they know!

Everyone has times where we wonder if we’re doing what we are meant for, if we can do more. During times of change is hard to find yourself but if you have support you will find your way..

Love is the best gift you could give someone! It’s the one thing that we all can give to help someone who is going through a tough time. Without even knowing how much you are doing for the person, they know you care.. These days we are dealing with more depression, more people who think they are not worth love or they are not enough: people who need to get lefted up.! Maybe you don’t think you can help them, but if you are loving them you’re helping them in more ways than you will ever know. So love others.

This past week was full of moments that I will never forget from the hike on the 4th, to getting a special weekend in Chicago!
Last Thursday I was able to hike up a mountain with my friends, which amazing to think that I could do it! I have always been one to think anything is possible if you put your mind to it, but hiking a mountain was out for me. But one of my friends who hikes all the time, said it would be possible to get me up a mountain! We started a group together for people with disabilities on hikes and camp outs.. For my birthday he took me to the top of a mountain! Amazing time and with an amazing group of people, I was going on a mountain hike I was just another person,. I was in a wheelchair that was pushed and pulled up to the top, and I was loving the new friends and experience. The next day I was up early to go to Chicago for my best friend weekend.. I was so excited. I thought I was going to make her feel special but she had everything set up to let me i was family! We got a tour of Chicago and a game which was fun! Then just hanging out with her was the best gift I ask for!

we all need love but there are many who need it much more than we know. they may not show it but you can tell by the way they act. Not thinking you could love them. But you know they have all your love and support!

Be someone’s light in the darkness! It doesn’t take a lot to show them you care. You might not think so but it could mean everything to them. It doesn’t need to be a big thing, just show someone they are needed and they matter to you.

I love when things come alive!  Summer days are coming, we can do more outdoors.  Or you can have new experiences which that is going to be my summer and  I’m super excited; with camp out, hikes, seeing someones who is very special to me and my brother is coming! Sometimes it can seem as if everything is coming true. I had not myself lately, sometimes we have these feeling that we don’t understand, there is so much that could explain why depression can be hard. I’m not saying I know what depression is like but I can say it comes when we have everything going right.

 

Love is very much needed, we need to share it more than we do. There is so much hurting people just because they have a difference that we don’t understand or we don’t think it’s true. Someone might be going through something and they also have depression which people with depression don’t want to talk about it: because it is a difference you can’t see it. So others that don’t have it, might think that someone who has depression might be acting, but it is not! So people with depression might hide it not to have to hear that they will be fine when they are hurting in ways we can not understand. So just be there and bring them love!

Someone somewhere needs you. Maybe you think of your life not as perfect, or maybe you are still trying to figure out what you want to do with your life. But you trying maybe is helping someone else get through whatever is getting them down. Maybe you are already helping them without even knowing!

I’m happy

Love to love on others

Sharing love and light is my mission.

Oh yeah I have Cp, but it doesn’t stop me from helping others!

life can be amazing between, having great friends, who are always by your side also knowing your difference doesn’t matter to them; you are supported during the times when you are going through a hard time, those times are when we need to know we are loved the most. when you are down and feeling as if your life is not going the way you had hoped; the feeling like giving up on your dreams. But having that person who has been there with you through those times is hard to come by. Believing in you could help more than we could know!

Happiness is like the sunshine it comes in the right timing. When you ‘ve had it, it’s a friend who has never left your side. It is your outlook on life! Know that what you are doing is what you are meant to do.

Lately, I’ve been dealing with a lot of different feelings from happiness, sadness it’s hard to explain or know what to do. Sometimes all you can do is pray. Through you wish you do more. Like take the hurt away from your loved ones: let them know how much they are loved but you know they will never understand. When it comes to showing people how much I love them, I cannot tell them enough. It’s like I think they know, I know what is needed is being there when they need you the most!

Love is the best gift ever

Time you cannot get back,

But the time you give to help someone you can mean the world to them

Loving someone more than you can explain,

Can be hard thinking they don’t know how much

But they do!

Love them and don’t worry if they know.

They do!

February is love mouth which makes it my favorite. I would say love is my word! I think there is not enough of it now a days, it is not just for your hubby or wife but anyone who gives you joy, support anyone who loves you just the way you are! So go ahead and go crazy write notes to everyone who has made your life better just by being in it!

You can get through anything!

During your sad times

Shine like only you can!

Know that you are special and you are needed iust as you are!

This new year, what are your goals? Do you keep the goals you make at the beginning of the year? I don’t normally set goals for the year, but I have goals that come up through out the year. But this new year I’m going to be setting goals for myself like to get to Chicago is a big one: I also want to get my business going, write more. We may not always keep goals, life gets busy we can forget about what we really want and just go for something that in the moment may make life easier but is it really going to make you happy?

I am going to try to make mine happen I really want to have my own business and I want to see friends in Chicago! Having steps to get there will help. If you take it with steps it can happen!

I have been thinking a lot about how sometimes there is not enough ways to show someone how much you love them. Though they think they have an idea, but you know they don’t. You try to do things that would show it but you can never really show it! We think it’s too much to be loving all the time, but really it’s needed more than anything else! Only you know how much you love someone and maybe you are like me: you want so much to show them but you might not ever get them to understand! All you can do is love them every second of the day like crazy!

We are different each person, so why do we think it’s not good enough! You may think the only people who are disabled are different,, no! Even if you are able-bodied you have a special need. So why do we think we have to hide ourselves in the hopes that someone will like us? We have things that might be keeping us down, why can’t we left each other up and light up each when it’s really needed? I think it would help those who don’t feel good enough, lonely and different, if we could looked at the difference between people and knowing that just a little more understanding could do more than we know!

I have been thinking about what I want for my business and how I think why I would love to be a mentor because I have the hope to help others, love themselves! It is not easy but you can! For me, it took me realizing that I am loved needed even if outsiders don’t think I can do things just like everyone else. I still have times when I get upset when someone acts as if I’m a child just because I can’t walk, but I try to think of the people who love me the way I am. We worry too much about what others think of us but who knows we might have more people like us if we don’t hide who we are!

We all have times when we don’t like ourselves. Maybe we have a difference that makes it harder for us to see that it’s ok to have hard days. I have a hard time be able to do things, I have been getting myself down because I was so tight that everything was harder for me to do! But I wasn’t sure how to get the tightess to stop, trying everything to help me, just so I could write. But I had friends around me telling me that it was ok I’ll would get back to normal. I thought about people who go throug depression maybe if they had someone like i did maybe that would be the difference they need!

Could you have someone change your life? I think yes and no. It is hard to think about but I think there are ways that people can change your outlook; but there times where they might not be in a good place to be open to have someone try to change them. We may want to or even just help someone through the hard time. You can only do so much. But the other side is if you meet someone who has a special way about them that could be what changes you! It’s more about if you feel like the way they act or just they have an amazing outlook, then you can say that someone changed your life. But you can not make someone change.

Life can get busy with work or as we try to make a new chapter in our lives. Maybe we don’t think we can do it but really what is stopping us. I think it is ourselves: i know for me each time I start to write I always have to make a decision to start writing and as I start It gets easier than if I just try to have what I want to write in mind,. Sometimes we have to go for it and see how it goes to see if we can do it or not!

Seasons, people can change and move on with life, not even realizing that they may forget about your friendship which normal but still hard if you are the one that feels the same.   Happens more than I want to say!   But I am going to write about the friendships that don’t change even if they mostly cities which really that hardly happens or it doesn’t last!   But I have been so lucky that I can say I have friends like that, and one who I know we are so far ahead and we both have different lifes and we don’t see each other that much but she is still close to me when I know she could have moved on but we are in each other lifes every day,  its means so much when you know they could have not kept your friendship but they do.   Just thinking about that.  As I know people don’t have that;  time can get away from us and it’s hard old friends when you can’t tell them you are going over but all you can do I keep close by messages and phone calls,  if they are that important to you it works!