Disabled parking permit

You know how sometimes things doesn’t make sense, I use a wheelchair; so that means when I go out. I need to park in the handicap parking lot so I have room for someone to help me get into my wheelchair. Now in Portugal you have to go to a government doctor so they can tell you if you’re disabled enough to get it: even though it’s more annoying because I have been here for 2 years now,it does make sense. Coming from Colorado, getting a disabled parking permit was as easy as going to your doctor and saying that you have a broken leg and you have a permit.  Yes I know there are so many kinds of disabilities: but if you are going to ask for it, don’t make up that you are disabled.

How come we are treated like we are kids

How come being in a wheelchair or any other disability: to others means you can’t think for yourself.?  I went to a hotel this weekend which is for people with disabilities, sounds great right? No it was all based on kids. Yes I know we know we can’t do everything like someone who can walk but if you have something for the disabled make sure you have something for all ages.

My CP doesn’t say anything about what I can do

My CP can be hard to handle at times: when I get tight, but I can’t do anything about it.  In life you can’t change who you are! I am in a wheelchair and I have a hard time talking; I have to have help with everything but I am good with it! Yes I know I can’t do everything but if there’s something I want to do, I will do it. We look at people who are disabled like they can’t do normal things, we can do everything just in a different way with help. Everyone needs help at some point in life, so why is it a big deal to be in a wheelchair? It’s not!

You

Living with a difference, or disability is not that bad. Depending on how you look at it. You may have to do something in a new way, just because you are in a a wheelchair or whatever you have that’s holding you back. Don’t let it stop you! There are ways and things that can help you do anything..  Anything is possible if you can see it for yourself! 

We are all different!

There is something about being different no matter if you have a disability or have a mental health illness, or even if you are a different color. But why do we need to be the same? My difference has helped me see how being can help others. Sure I’ve been through my down times, but I’ve had people to talk, I have people that saw me as I am with my disability but it doesn’t matter to them.  Others who thought you couldn’t walk, you can’t think for yourself. So I can tell you, be different and let others know what you have: it could help.

Disability month

This month is disability awareness month! What is a disability? It is when your body doesn’t work the way it should, you can’t walk, talk and so many others that we don’t see. I noticed now that we all have some kind of disability, just some you can see more. That’s not a bad thing, it makes us all different and we can all help each other. And stop all the stigmas!

My thoughts on the Ada

My thoughts on the ADA in America, I don’t think it really helps people with disabilities: yes it has helped in the workplace some. But in case of schooling we get put together in the same classroom no matter if we can get Lean or what not. Yes some need special education but many don’t, many could have normal lives. If we were included with the other kids, then they would see us as equal for they would have grown up with us, but now they don’t see us in school. That’s Why we get others who don’t understand that we can have life without our family sometimes. Yes I am in Portugal now and I have to see different things for people with disabilities but I already feel more included.

Pride month

Do you know that pride month doesn’t include people with disabilities! Why is that? Why are we so divided? They are people who are people in wheelchairs are gay. So who says that a wheelchair can be involved in pride month! It should be for everyone!

Keep on talking about mental health!

The last few days of this month, maybe be more aware of others who have depression, bipolar or other mental health issues and just be a support for someone. Mental health awareness month is just about over, but we can keep talking about it. And maybe one day mental health won’t be pushed away or scary to people!💚

My thoughts on the Ada

My thoughts on the ADA in America, I don’t think it really helps people with disabilities: yes it has helped in the workplace some. But in case of schooling we get put together in the same classroom no matter if we can get Lean or what not. Yes some need special education but many don’t, many could have normal lives. If we were included with the other kids, then they would see us as equal for they would have grown up with us, but now they don’t see us in school. That’s Why we get others who don’t understand that we can have life without our family sometimes. Yes I am in Portugal now and I have to see different things for people with disabilities but I already feel more included.

Mental health day

We all have found our lives callings, some is to help people with disabilities get out doors; for most people who have disabilities like to work with the ADA. But for me, I see an bigger need for mental health care. Look at all the people who are hiding their bipolar or depression or any other mental health: they hide in or they feel like they will lose their people to help them. But can you help if you aren’t aware of mental health? Yes I know it’s a subject for doctors but I think I can do a little bit to make a difference. It’s not well spoken for, that’s why we have stigmas and the people hide because we are not talking about it just making it more of a difference, when we could really help the mental health people! Mental health services are not much all over the world from what I’ve seen because people don’t understand how someone can be depressed, but I can see the way the world looks at differences:we don’t try to understand. I want to do everything I can to make sure I am a mentor and try to let others know that having a mental illness is not a joke or something to run from. Today is mental health world day so let’s start talking about it and make a difference!

CP awareness day

Today is CP day awareness, you would say why do I want to celebrate having a disability because it makes me, and because I want to help others know that having a difference is awesome!

Real Talk

You matter! You are the best. You need to be here. People can need you. People need you because you are different and unique. We can learn from you. We need to start talking about mental issues like it’s something that doesn’t change who you are. Mental illness is hard enough. If we don’t talk about it, we will never get beyond the school shootings. I know it’s not the whole reason there are shootings in schools and public places, but I feel like all the bullying is a factor. People are not happy with who they are. We have to be the same so we don’t talk about how we feel. We hide when we are sad or upset or have a need for people. Because we feel like we need to fit in, we don’t talk about the things that really hurt us. Now there’s a big movement in mental health which is awesome. However, it should’ve been going on this whole time.

Mental Health Stigma

Lately, people have been so focused on themselves, what other people think about them, and how they look. I used to be so focused on my body movements and how people saw me that I wasn’t being who I am. I’ve been watching the news lately, and there has been a lot about the mental health movement. I think it’s great, but at the same time, I feel like people don’t understand how much people are suffering just so they can fit in. They are hiding the way they actually feel just so they can have people around them. The number of people who commit suicide is getting higher every year just because society has a model of how we need to look and act to fit in, have a normal life, and/or keep a job. However, I have seen that the more people try to fit in, the more they get depressed and don’t talk about how they really feel. Not everyone has to fit in or change themselves just to get people behind them. I feel mental health is getting worse because we think we need to change the perspective of acceptance of mental health. We are all different for a reason. I know I can’t do much, but I wish there was a way to change how society makes people feel.

What can happen to someone who feels depressed

Suicide is because people don’t feel understood, loved or supported. People who have a mental illness don’t like to let it out just because of the stigma that people have around mental illness just others don’t see why somebody is sad all the time or; someone doesn’t want to do anything, maybe they are depressed or hurting and they don’t want to talk about it.. we all have down times so why do we think mental illness is just made up just so they can get out of something: NO THEY ARE HURTING! Suicides are happening because they feel like they can’t say anything about having a mental illness just because of the stigma, so they don’t tell us! Hiding it can lead to suicide!

You can help !

May is mental health awareness month; I think it should be each month. Mental Illness is hard to understand, but if we could learn about how it works or what we can do to support someone hiding behind they have a mental illness, just a mental illness has a bad reputation! Many people hide it, and it is not fair to the person who has to deal with it. We could support them; it could help more than we could ever imagine!

Today is suicide prevention day. This is something I wish more people knew about, and understood what mental illnes is like for the person that has to deal with it. But sometimes people think it’s something made up, but it’s not that at all! Mental illness is a sickness that we can help better the lives who have it, if we understood more about Mental illness!

Depression and any kind of mental health problem is so real. But it’s not talked about, we act like it’s not real: as if they are trying to get more love. But really people with mental health problem are not acting they do need help.  Depression and mental health does need to be talked about!

Lately I have been reading like crazy and that is why I haven’t been writing.. I have moved to Pueblo and sometimes I get down because I get lonely,, I wonder if I made the right decision for me. But it will get better, once I have my own house.

Starting over can be hard but it could be what is needed to grow yourself, in so many ways. But it also gives you anxiety, I’m in that in life, I want this I know it will be great for me, but right now it’s a little hard.. I’m not sure what to do each day. I know it will get better but now I’m going through anxiety but I am not giving in.

Today is Mental health day. I like to think I stand to help people with mental health problems… It’s a difference that most people don’t understand. I understand that having depression or bipolar it’s not something you can help! I am going to try to help stop the way others view mental health because it’s not right.

Someone somewhere is dealing with depression, but hiding it because if you have a difference you get out casted. Depression is not something to take lightly it could get to where they could take their own life. When we can do something to help them feel loved and needed.. Don’t let depression tran you a way from them. Be there, because your friendship and love might be the only thing that helps!

Depressed hurts it not only hurts the one who has it but also everyone who loves them.. it’s hard to know what to do if someone you know is going through depression; you may not know what to do to help them without them realizing that you are aware of their depression. As I learn more about people who have depression, most people don’t want to talk about it but you can tell by the way they act: as if nothing matters or they don’t want to do anything. Also if they don’t care about themselves! You can tell, but it’s hard to know what to do or tell them.. Depression is like your mind takes over and we don’t understand why people are pulling away and hiding: but we want to help we want to find a way of being there for them when they feel alone. Just be there it could be all that is needed!

Thank you so much

My summer day is getting busy with my trip which I have been thinking about forever now. As a person with a disability and needing to go with me and everything else I have to an idea about if I can get into. Sometimes my cp, can make a trip in a way challenging but I have an amazing team who help me experience everything without even a second thought.. we are going to Chicago for my best friend, so I am so thankful to my other best friend who is giving up her weekend so I can spend time with a friend.

lIFE WITH A DIFFERENCES

I’ve been thinking about this idea that if you have a difference you are looked at or people thought of as you can’t do much, or people just don’t try to understand what you going through. Maybe you are in a wheelchair and you get locked at as you are a child, why? Or you have depression and or mental health problems, you have to deal with all the bad things that people can say to put you down. I want to change the world sees people who are different!

CP LIFE

This month is CP awareness month it is a part of me. I think it has made me who I am, I want to help people to understand that just because I have CP doesn’t mean my life is not amazing! I do everything just like anyone but I need help. Living with cp can be hard, especially when the kind is not like most, I have to work harder to find the right things which will help me do the things I love. But I am happy the way I am!

Why do people want to take their own lives? Here is my thoughts. We all have our difference but many people don’t understand that just because you can’t seesee a difference doesn’t mean that they don’t have a difference. Someone who has depression, you can not see it and they might not tell anyone about what they have. They may have had a harder time telling someone because people don’t know how to act towards someone who has depression. So they hide it in when they need someone for help in the time they need it the most. If the people who have depression felt understood and loved maybe it would help,

The stigma

Mental health has a bad stigma around it, just because it’s not easy to understand or know how to help people with mental health problems. I want to change the way we think about mental illness, I understand that having any kind of mental illness is not something that you can make up : like a disable it something that they can’t help. I don’t know a lot about mental health but I am learning because I think it could help more people who are hiding thier illness because of the stimga others have made about mental health..

We all have hopes and dreams.

We are going to be different from each other

Through we are the same.

But you don’t want to talk me because I have a difference!

We are not that different from each other!

How can I help people with depression you may ask, I am a happy person! I am, but I also know what it’s like to be different or have people not understand you. Depressed can be hard to handle at times, especially if you are alone and people tran you away because of it! Even though it is not something you can help, like my cp there are stuff that you can’t help. The feeling of being lonely and maybe it’s harder because your depression can make it harder time telling others what you are feeling. Not being able to talk to someone could make depression wrost on you. I want to help people who feel lonely.

Love!

Love can be hard sometimes but it’s worth it! It is the most important thing we can give maybe even the one thing that could save someone’s life! Love helps depression you might be asking? Yes it does help! Just knowing that you have someone who wants you in their life could mean the world to someone when they are going through depression and wanting to end their own life. Just LOVE!

Today is suicidal prevention day,  because of what I want to I think it’s should be written about.   Depression anxiety is real and in my view it is seen as something we can just look over as if somebody just made up that they are depressed.  Its not;  the way I understand it,  it is as if your mind takes over your thoughts and feelings and you can’t help your feelings when you are depressed.  I am a happy person so me writing about this is kind of weird,   but first a few of my dearest friends go through depression and anxiety on a daily bread and I know that people out there are very understanding which makes you want to hide it,  but what is most needed is to know you are loved!     This is what I am working on my blog facebook page/group to be about.   Less suicides if they know that they are loved,  is my own views on this but maybe this is more needed to help.  But that is how I want to make a difference.

this month

Having a difference that everybody can see I think can be a little easier, than the differences you cannot see.  Having a disability all my life,  I have learned how to explain to others what my disability is and if they are open to differences I have a new friend.  But that is not always the case because people are afraid of something new, yes I have a wheelchair I don’t talk well but I can get people to get comfortable with my disability.   So if you have a mental illness I think it’s harder for others to understand what you are going through.  This month is mental illness awareness mouth,  each day there is someone who has to hide who they are just because others don’t understand how mental illness can just take over the body and you don’t can’t get out of it,  it’s not you.   People who have mental illness might just need someone to understand them just be a friend.   Is not something we can’t help we can.   If we take the time to understand how mental illness works.

So what

Its starting to get cold out, what do you like do when weather changes?  The days it’s too cold to get out of the house,  your comfort zone;  it’s not just the weather that go through changes,  we do too.   We try to keep it hidden, because of everything from others would say to pick on us, even though it is not our doing,  difference or illness is not something we can control but people don’t understand differences even if we are all different.  They don’t understand your life may be your life can be because of an bad experience that has been hard to deal with, or maybe you may have an illness, or a disability, that others don’t get because it’s new to them.   Growing up with CP and now trying to live as normal as I can but I still get the look like I’m not to do something just because I use a wheelchair.   What is the big deal I don’t walk, I used to let others thoughts get to me,  but now I know where I taking my life and what the people who are in my world think about me and is what helps me when others are trying to put me down.   Maybe it would help you.

show them

This morning I was at an event for the disability community, thinking that I could do some networking and meet new people; it didn’t end up that way, it felt as if people are afraid of differences even though we all have a difference. I think I can make friends easily, but I don’t.   Once people know what disability I have then they start to talk to me; because I move all the time and my speech is not that good,  its hard to meet people. Having a difference in which people can see even before they talk to you can put you down, but you have to show them you’re more than your difference!

lonely

Depression can be lonely. Its hard to know how much to help; or not to say the wrong thing. These thoughts we all, even me and I want to help people who depression not because I know about it;  but I could help being their happiness back or just even just be there when its really needed.   I feel like depression is an illnesses that people ran from, just they don’t understand , don’t think they know what to say.  Here is the way I say it,  its not about knowing what to say but first just be there nothing else could help them more than knowing that someone is always there!   Just knowing that they are loved and someone is there ready to talk or be a friend whom no one else will.

BIA

My week away was amazing and needed too.   I am tired but I loved every moment of it,  as you know having a difference that others can see and then think that you are not capable when you know are, can be hard.   But there at camp it was what can you do.  I had to think of goals each day that I thought I have do; I wanted to walk everybody which I did!  I even did some walking on the ropes course which was hard but fun then I zipped down the best part!  We rafting I loved so much,  I loved everything getting to meet new friends and feeling like I was not disabled and nominal,  I worked hard but had a great week.

pin Mount Evans

I have been in a wheelchair all my life, so something about knew I couldn’t do. Such as getting to the top of a mountain! There are many others that I didn’t think I could get to do, I have done a lot for myself that others didn’t think I could do; but this weekend I’m going to get to be on top of a mountain WHAT? You might be saying me too! Most things I have found a way around it so I can have a normal life. But getting to the mountain what? Really, my friend is a mountain climber and knows that I may not have had a opportunity for something like this, so we have started an organization to get people out who do not get to go on hikes because of their differences or just don’t think they can. This is a huge thing for me and others like me to I will write a blog on the experience next week.

Being in a wheelchair you would think it would be easy to be seen!   It’s not;  I was at the hospital visiting a friend and I realized that another friend of mine worked there,  so we went to see if she was in.   I was rolling down the hall way of the hospital with my father and friend staying to one side so others could pass through thinking that way I won’t ran into anyone.   So I thought, , now I don’t expect people to move out of my way, though my body does not always listen to what I want to do.  But I always try to make others can get by me.     So as we were walking I don’t  think anything about that the other people were gone to close to my wheelchair before moving over to the other side even though I was on the side; my friend saw and said people are just walking like you’re not there.   I get out of two reactions from  others who don’t know me,  first is very helpful;  second is ignoring me because of my disability. Why  is being in a wheelchair such a big thing it is the way I can get around!

Mental illness

Today is mental illness awareness day, depression, suicide and many others disabilities in which nobody can see.  The hardest difference to talk about, there are many different thoughts on this topic; even if you deal with depression it may be different in your life than anyone else.  It is so different for everyone, for some talking about it helps them, others just hide it.   I don’t know very much about mental illness but it’s one topic I want to help.

Good to know.

As you know;  I am working on becoming a online mentor,  I want to help in different topics including disabilities,  depressed and bipolar depression.   I am disabled , people can see my difference and I can explain why I am the way I am but it still hard for people to us my CP.  But the two other differences I want to help in or just be a support in depression and bipolar; you don’t see if someone is dealing with it. I can understand that whoever has either of bipolar or depression;  first it is the easy to tell someone second you feel different and from my experience people don’t see differences even though we all are different!   But if you have a differences you can face loneliness and much more hard things than your difference,  I get it all the time I may not be a doctor,  but I understand what it’s like to a name called just because of something I can’t help.    But back to bipolar;  this is what it is ‘’ What Are the Symptoms of Bipolar Disorder?

In bipolar disorder, the dramatic episodes of high and low moods do not follow a set pattern. Someone may feel the same mood state (depressed or manic) several times before switching to the opposite mood. These episodes can happen over a period of weeks, months, and sometimes even years.How severe it gets differs from person to person and can also change over time, becoming more or less severe. Symptoms of mania (“the highs”):

  • Excessive happiness, hopefulness, and excitement
  • Sudden changes from being joyful to being irritable, angry, and hostile
  • Restlessness
  • Rapid speech and poor concentration
  • Increased energy and less need for sleep
  • Unusually high sex drive
  • Making grand and unrealistic plans
  • Showing poor judgment
  • Drug and alcohol abuse
  • Becoming more impulsive

During depressive periods (“the lows”), a person with bipolar disorder may have:

Here is an over view of bipolar depression, I know I couldn’t fix this or depression, but if we start learning about it, I might be able to help someone with either depression and or bipolar diseases.

I have Cerebral palsy the crazy kind I like to tell people!  I’m always moving and not because I want to, its uncontrollable yeah I make fun of myself half the time!   I am hard to understand, I like to think I don’t give up easily,  its can get hard but I have to keep going because I know I have the best support team batting with me!   I live on my own but I have a roommate and caregivers that came and go through the day.   Like anyone my age I am in the place in my life, I’m still trying to fugue out what I want to do with my life but I know CP  is not keeping me down!   Cp day is March 25th.

Have you ever imagined your life different?  If you are in a wheelchair; you will understand this more.   I am in a wheelchair and need help getting out of the chair; I am on my own half of the day.   Nominally its ok; I can get my work done or just have some time to myself but what happens if I need to go,,,, or if I need to get out of my chair; I cannot!   I could probably find a way but I can’t go P on my own, that is the only thing about being home alone that sucks!   I was talking to a friend about how I could not imagine how if I could walk and just go wherever I wanted to, I could not see myself as an able-body!  I guess because my CP has always been a part of me, it would be weird to think about me walking!   Its just me, not saying that I am just cp but it is the only thing I know.   Having people help me though my day though life!

Having a physical disability but just physical can be hard there is so many thoughts that people who see somebody like me.   I am not saying that any kind of disability is not hard but for me in what I have done and what I see most of the time it’s not easy.  My CP is just physical but others who don’t know me think it’s more,  and that so gets to me every time,  even though I know it’s coming!     Do you feel like that?   I think even if you don’t have a disability you can get that.  So how do you not let it got to you?   Love you are first,  knowing that there are people who need you, who love you for you! Tried to not let them put you down isn’t easy without knowing you have a family and friends who don’t judge you.

Childhood with a difference can be hard on everyone. Not because it’s the child but because there is so much people think they need more than a normal child.   I am saying that some child who are disabled nothing more but every disability is so different in more ways than people think; trying to group all disabled children into the same class doesn’t seem right to me.  I think there could be a other way to see it a child can or needs more help.  Some people who have disabilities could do more than people think. It may be a little different but they can, just learn them and go from there!

What do you think of when you think of disability?  There are several different ideas about what people with disabilities but mostly it’s what you cannot do, its not because they don’t care they just don’t know any different.     Having a wheelchair and getting that look of oww sorry about that you’re in a wheelchair or baby talk like I don’t understand.   Every time I meet someone new, I am still not used to it.  Its me, I can do anything and no I am not a kid just because I don’t walk.  It like I have to walk to think!   I have a lot that I can do just in a different way.   It happens all the time and I want to change that view.   I will!